The Targeted Individual Experience: On Being a Pawn — Being Told to Put Faith in Jesus Christ and Be Like Angels Does Not Justify Unlawful Surveillance or Wicked Research
Disclaimer
I am telling the truth of my own experiences. I want to clarify: the surveillance network I refer to comprises people with different personalities, intentions, sins, and backgrounds. When I call them out, I am calling out specific people — not every single person in the network. They all have their own rhetoric, their own issues, and their own levels of involvement.
Note on this post: This blog was aided by artificial intelligence to help organize and articulate my thoughts. However, the content is based on my real experiences and reflects my genuine understanding of what I have endured and what the Bible teaches.
Why I Am Writing This
I am writing this post to address something that does not get talked about enough: the way that the US surveillance cult treats targeted individuals as pawns — as subjects to be studied, exploited, and manipulated. They sow a sense of specialness, of being chosen, of being angelic or ordained. But this is a trap.
Some of them try to be kind. Some of them at least let the targeted individual feel special. They remind us that we are like angels and that there is God and Jesus Christ. They tell us to put our faith in Him and to try to be an angel by recording our experiences and documenting. But this does not make up for what they are doing.
It is not wrong that we are truth tellers here. We are documenting real harm. But we are still pawns — influenced by unlawful, hypocritical, sinful human beings with occult, demonic-seeming technologies. We are manipulated into writing these targeted individual experiences to aid with the exposure of these US elite surveillers, so that they can take a step back and not feel as wicked in obviously doing these things.
True freedom would be them not doing this to us at all. True freedom would be them not surveilling us lawlessly, while trying to feel better about their actions by calling us angels and helpers of God and Jesus Christ. Being told to have faith does not erase the wrongdoing.
On Leaving Cults: The Process of Depression, Sadness, and Finding Meaning Again
It is important to talk about what happens when people begin to realize they have been part of a cult — or when they start to see the manipulation for what it is. People who join cults and then leave them go through a very difficult process. This process often involves depression, sadness, and a deep sense of emptiness. Many feel as if they have forsaken God and Jesus Christ, even if they have not. There is a profound lack of meaning, a disorientation, a feeling of being untethered.
This happens because cults do not just control your actions — they control your identity. They give you a sense of purpose, belonging, and specialness. They love-bomb you in the beginning. They make you feel seen, understood, and valued in ways you may not have felt before. Then, once you are inside, the abuse begins. But it is subtle. It is mixed with moments of apparent kindness. It is confusing.
When you finally realize what is happening — when you see the manipulation, the control, the lawlessness on the other side — it can feel like your entire world is collapsing. The meaning they gave you was false. The specialness was a tool. The love was conditional. And coming out of that requires true love — not the artificial, conditional love of the cult, but the genuine, unconditional love of God, of community, of people who see you as a person and not as a pawn.
This is why I still put my faith in Jesus Christ. Not because the surveillers told me to — but because He is the source of true meaning, true love, and true freedom. The cult offers a counterfeit version of these things. But the real thing is found in Christ, in genuine community, in lawful living, and in loving our neighbors as ourselves.
If you are a targeted individual who is going through this process of disillusionment, please know that what you are feeling is normal. The depression, the sadness, the questioning — these are signs that you are waking up to the truth. Do not let them convince you that the emptiness means you should go back. The emptiness means you are ready to fill your life with something real.
I pray for all who are leaving cults or waking up to manipulation. May God heal your hearts, restore your sense of meaning, and surround you with genuine love. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
A Demand for an Official Public Apology
Given the depth of the harm that has been done — the unlawful surveillance, the psychological and spiritual abuse, the violation of personhood, the manipulation, the ritual abuse, the exploitation, the targeting of families — I am compelled to state this clearly:
I demand an official public apology from the US surveillers and their network to me and to all targeted individuals who have been subjected to this harassment and abuse.
This is not about revenge. This is about accountability. This is about acknowledging the truth of what has been done. This is about recognizing that we are human beings made in the image of God — not lab rats, not entertainment, not pawns in a game.
The violations we have endured go against the very principles of freedom, personhood, and human rights. They go against the teachings of Jesus Christ, who calls us to love our neighbors, to treat others as we would want to be treated, and to respect the dignity of every human being.
An apology will not undo the harm. But it would be a step toward truth. It would be an acknowledgment that what was done to us was wrong. It would be a recognition that we are not the enemy — we are victims.
I call on those responsible to stop hiding behind their technology, their anonymity, and their justifications. Face what you have done. Apologize publicly. And then stop.
I pray for justice, truth, and accountability in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
On Feeling Special and Being Called Angels
I do not feel more exceptional than anyone else. I recognize the importance of being a part of society — of integrating with mainstream life, of loving humanity and the communities we live in. I also recognize that their attempts to humble me through mockery, manipulated images, and other tactics are not the foundation of my identity. My identity is in Christ, not in their games. I remind myself regularly not to feel entitled or narcissistic.
They try to make you feel special so that you focus more on them and your own sense of importance, rather than on the reality: that you are a science project. Some of them let me know their contempt directly — calling me things like "grass" or a "lab rat" — to remind me that in their eyes, I am not a person but a subject.
That said, we do need to love the Gospel and love God. We do need to know that God does love and care about us. We do need to repent of our sins. And we are extremely unlucky to be made targeted individuals, to have these people research us as if we were animal subjects. But we do not need to feel special about it. We do not need to accept their false framing of our situation as a gift or an honor.
The Truth About How I Came to Faith
Some of them are manipulative. They say things as if they are the ones allowing me to be smart, or that if it were not for them I would not even be a Christian. This is false.
It was an actual Christian woman who approached my mom to bring us to church. Because of her kindness and obedience to the Holy Spirit, we now have a church family and actively worship and follow Jesus Christ. The surveillers did not give me instructions on what to do or how to do it. In fact, they intentionally sow confusion with my faith and also encourage lawlessness. They test my true faith in Jesus Christ while they sit back, relax, and view me and others as entertainment. They hide from their own lawless sins but feel better about themselves because they "allow" us to exercise our freedom of speech, among other things.
I rebuke their cruelty and slyness in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
We Are All Victims
Be careful. The people in this network can harbour different thoughts and assign targeted individuals different personalities. Some they make more vain and narcissistic. Some they make more sensitive and hurt. They tune the level of abuse, harassment, and racism to fit the person. But we are all victims of unlawful surveillance, science, examination, and body autonomy research. It is insidious, unlawful, and deeply concerning.
We should be able to do more than be their lab rats and test experiments. We should have free will to decide whether to join their cults or not. From my obvious standpoint as a follower of Jesus Christ, I see what they do as the antithesis of Christianity, faith, goodness, love, and freedom. Instead, they oppress people with demonic, cult-like technology and then justify their actions by acting as if we are their slaves — to be oppressed and sacrificed for research.
What kind of research? Testing the validity of Gospel teachings. Studying sanctification. Entertainment. Human trafficking. These are slimy and wicked, objectively.
I rebuke their curses and wickedness in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
We Are All Sinful Humans
We are all sinful humans with human flesh. We are prone to being manipulated. We are human beings with needs: love, care, belonging, specialness. The surveillers exploit this to make us not realize how inappropriate and lawless their behavior is, while making us have difficult lives that we could have otherwise avoided.
Even then, we can put our faith in Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour. I still forgive them and hope they can recognize their obvious sins and turn away — stopping their harmful behaviors, sowing of confusion, and unclean teachings — while utilizing technology for self-interest rather than for the good of others.
I bless and pray for their salvation, goodness, understanding, and forgiveness in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
On the Diversity Within the Cult
The cult has a mix of different people — young and old, with a variety of appearances. Some of them have what might be described as an older elite family phenotype: taller, narrower faces, more Anglophone features. Many others look like very average people you might see on a college campus — people with different hair colors, different levels of conventional attractiveness, different backgrounds.
Within this diverse group of US surveillance operators, they have different people to try to connect with or influence different targeted individuals — within the United States as well as across nations. They try to see what type of personality would be able to influence what type of person. For instance, someone of a particular background might be sent to appeal to a sense of loneliness, vanity, narcissism, or need to feel special.
On the Diversity Within Targeted Individuals
We are all victims. Targeted individuals are also human beings who are sinners, but we also can love Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour. Some of the people they surveil may indeed have harmful tendencies. But others are people who deserve a second chance and deserve to live a decent life and be loved by Jesus Christ as their Lord and Saviour — as I believe is my case.
There is diversity within the targeted individual community. Some of us have different problems, different backgrounds, different struggles. We all need to work together rather than feel a sense of entitlement — as if we are special to be targeted this way. From the higher perspective of the US surveillers with this technology, doing this harassment and ritual abuse, they probably see us as pieces in a game — trying to sow jealousy, misinformation, and confusion within the targeted individual community.
Of course, I still put my faith in Jesus Christ. I do know about angels and also demons. Ultimately I still believe in the higher being and the power of our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ God — and the fact that God is love. So I try not to be too invested in this manipulative mind game and surveillance. I try to put my focus elsewhere: on godly living, on not using the internet excessively, on not trying to feel special or superior. I try to honestly document the lawlessness, the harmful behaviors, and the manipulations of people in positions of power who use technology in ways that are not transparent. They try to make people interested in angels, demons, and God, but ultimately engage in harmful occult practices and treat it as a game — as if they are above normal people, above those with mental illness, above everyone who simply wants to live with love, goodness, faith, and sanity of mind.
Amen.
A Specific Example of Psychological Manipulation
I want to provide a specific example of how they try to traumatize you and project harmful influences into your mind. This is difficult to describe, but I will do so as gently as possible.
Ever since their presence in my life, they have put me through times of ritual abuse and trauma. They have let me know that they are engaging in all sorts of inappropriate behaviors — including violation and trauma. Now, in everyday life, if I see things that remind me of the traumas they have falsely associated with me — such as certain symbols, words, or images — they try to accuse me of being connected to harmful practices.
They discuss certain bodily sensations within your body in order to combine the group's harmful interests with my personal sense of fear and discomfort. They try to send harmful influences toward you.
Another thing they have tried to do was to make it seem as if something harmful was growing inside you — which they were projecting and trying to artificially implant. Their technology allows them to project visual imagery. A few times they tried to implant these harmful images into my mind — images of things like eggs hatching, or shadows moving within my mindspace that look very real but are honestly very artificial. These are things they project. They hope that once they can abuse and traumatize and trigger you enough, you would internalize these false images — these harmful projections — that they sow within your mindspace.
Then they project harmful figures or images — or a sense of formless body parts — doing inappropriate things within your mindspace. They also project innocuous images of babies, infants, and children, hoping that it would encourage you to visualize these innocent things in harmful and violent ways.
I know that this is a very distressing thing to describe, but this is what is happening.
I pray that God forgives me for my sins. I love Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour, absolutely. I know that all sins are forgiven except for blasphemy against the Holy Spirit. I also pray that I may be able to reduce the explicitness and the disturbing nature of this testimony, even though it is accurate to what they do — trying to artificially implant harmful images into my mind, artificially traumatize me, and artificially make me carry harmful influences that they try to sow.
I rebuke all of their evil in the name of Christ Jesus. Amen.
They Continue to Surveil Us
They are going to continue surveilling us to see our next step. Some of the responses of typical people who are victims of cults is that they would basically forsake God, turn away from church, and stop believing in Jesus Christ — feeling as if it was too bothersome, tiring, and just completely avoid and forsake the belief of angels, God, and Jesus Christ altogether. This is, of course, the wrong thing to do.
Ultimately, God still knows about our experiences as targeted individuals. We do have these occult research people, as well as people who engage in harmful behavior, treating us as if we are lab rats. But we can still truly have faith in Jesus Christ and also live as members of society, abiding with other people.
We are in a very unjust and unfair situation because we are not inherently better or worse than many other people in normal society. Perhaps we simply do not trust the mainstream government or are not blindly enchanted with certain national narratives. Perhaps we all have our unique experiences and stories of being on unusual parts of the internet, or getting exposed to certain ideas, or doing things that they thought would justify targeting us. Or perhaps we really were just vulnerable and lacked a sense of community and church — so they thought that it would be convenient to start surveilling us and doing this type of technology research.
On Not Feeling Exceptional
I recognize the importance of being lawful and being a part of society. I recognize the importance of loving humanity and the society we live in. I do not believe I am exceptional or that I need to be on the fringes to feel special or validated. My identity is not in being targeted. My identity is in Christ.
The things they want us to do is to feel disillusioned after selling us the solution of feeling special, entitled, or exceptional — when none of us need to feel that way. If we love God and rightfully worship Jesus Christ and not ourselves, then we are on the right path. I think what they try to do within the targeted individual community is sell the lie that we are like angels or that we are ordained or special. But then instead of focusing on God, Jesus Christ, and other people in the world, we focus too much on our sense of self — as if being targeted is an exceptional gift or that we are exceptional.
This is what they intentionally do. Instead, we should focus less on ourselves. We should realize how ordinary we are and how unfair it is to be gaslit and targeted this way. We are victims who are surveilled and gaslit to feel special or exceptional — while they do manipulative things to us as experiments, with a sense of detachment and no genuine, official apology.
I rebuke all of their harmful influences in the name of Christ Jesus. Amen.
On Fake Killing and Direct Energy Weapons
I do not know if this pattern will continue, but this did happen previously when they were essentially subjecting me to severe physical distress with their direct energy weapons. As they did this, they let me know that they were able to paralyze my muscles as well as make me feel pain, disarray, and confusion. Then they also tried to mock me with things that I previously said toward them in moments of frustration.
As I describe these experiences and harbor a sense of concern, I am sure that they are still playing a long game — hoping that they would break me down spiritually, or at least get me into a very sad, disoriented state of mind — and then try to project harmful faces within the group with gleeful reactions, throwing the insults I have hurled right back at me, claiming that they have the last word.
Some of them literally have a sense of harmful fantasy of wanting their victims to see their faces prior to dying and what they think would be eternal separation from God. I believe this is still what some of them carry in their hearts.
Ultimately, I am not overcome with fear because I put my faith in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour. In the Book of Proverbs — the book of wisdom — it says that the beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Proverbs 9:10). So if they truly do love God and want to save their souls and their community and their spirits, I believe that they should not be doing things like that.
Nonetheless, I am still calling them out because this is what they are capable of doing. Some of them still harbor these harmful intentions of hoping that you would die in a state of fear — which again is deeply troubling, and I would not want this upon anybody. I pray that they can all have goodness, safety, and comfort in the name of Christ Jesus.
Amen.
A Prayer for Targeted Individuals
If you are a targeted individual, please know that you are not alone. You are not special in the way they tell you — you are a human being made in the image of God, deserving of dignity, respect, and autonomy. Do not let them make you feel like an angel or a god. Do not let them make you feel like a demon or a monster. You are a person.
Focus on your faith. Focus on living lawfully as part of your community. Focus on the people who genuinely love you. Document responsibly. Pray without ceasing. Recognize the importance of being integrated into society — of loving your neighbor, of contributing to the common good, of not isolating yourself on the fringes in search of a false sense of specialness.
If you are leaving a cult or waking up to manipulation, be patient with yourself. The depression and sadness are real, but they are not the end of the story. God sees you. God loves you. And there is life and meaning on the other side of this darkness.
I bless all targeted individuals with God's love, understanding, presence, and goodness, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
My Final Rebuke and Blessing
I rebuke their harmful actions, lies, and attempts to sow specialness and false angelic identities in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
I will not be broken. I will keep speaking the truth for transparency and documentation — not because I enjoy it, but because silence protects those who do harm.
By God's grace and protection, I bless myself and others in the name of Jesus Christ. I bless true Christians, survivors, and ordinary people trying to live decent lives. I bless my parents, my family, and every soul who reads these words.
May God protect you. May the Holy Spirit guard your mind and heart. May harmful actions be brought into the light — not for revenge, but for justice, mercy, and truth.
In the name of Jesus Christ, I declare love, protection, and grace.
Amen.
✝️ In truth and grace — survivor's testimony, not a weapon.
"The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it." — John 1:5
Note on AI: This blog was aided by artificial intelligence to help organize and articulate my thoughts. However, the content is based on my real experiences and reflects my genuine understanding of what I have endured and what the Bible teaches.
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