A Staged Death, Mockery, and Why I Still Speak Honestly

When their initial plans did not work – when they realized I was not as superficial or easily impressed by their version of society – they changed their approach. At one point, they tried to simulate a death using their technology, making me think I had died and resurrected. Looking back, it was clearly staged. Then they mocked me, calling me a god or someone who had come back from the dead, as if I were delusional.

I believe that was an attempt to unsettle my mind – to make me think I was Jesus Christ or a prophet, to lead me into confusion and embarrassment. I will not describe every detailed tactic they use, because that could be used against me. But I still want to speak honestly about my experience, so that others in similar situations feel less alone.

I hope that anyone reading this will choose not to bully or ostracize others, but to love people instead. I pray that you can turn away from harmful patterns and believe in Jesus Christ as Lord and Savior – the Holy Trinity. God protects us, gives us life, and offers salvation.

They have tried to mock me by pretending I am a man and then criticizing my body. They have tried to paint me as mentally ill, as against Christ, as delusional. But I am not against Christianity – not the Christianity I have learned from reading the Gospel, which is very different from what some so‑called "Christians" in powerful places practice through war and other harms.

I put my faith in Jesus Christ. I already abide in Him. It is difficult at times, but we are saved through grace, not through works. I am grateful that I can still do something meaningful to help others in similar circumstances.

What I have learned is this: do not live according to worldly values. You can mock me if you like. I care most about the people who genuinely love me and whom I love. You matter less to the wider world than you might think – and that can be freeing.

I am sure they are still planning more disturbances. Their technology can cause real physical pain. They still want to harm me and my mother. That is frightening. What feels especially unfair is that because my parents are decent people, I have been singled out to look like the unstable, confused, or false one. But I am not false.

I bless everyone. I ask for protection in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.