Sleep Paralysis, Unwanted Projections, and Concern for Family

Some of those monitoring me have tried to project unsettling images and sensations onto me – things that feel like sleep paralysis combined with muscle control. They made my body feel pressed down, suffocated, as if my face was drooping. It was a disturbing experience. The technology they use seems capable of affecting muscles and inducing a state much like sleep paralysis, which they use to try to frighten me.

I thank God that I am not consumed by fear. Ultimately, God is with me, and Jesus Christ is my Lord and Savior. I love God, and I love people.

Watching how some powerful people in the US treat their own citizens gives me clarity about what I have experienced – especially those connected to entertainment, the military, and wealthy industries, along with historical injustices like slavery and unnecessary wars. I want to be clear: I truly love the American people. Many are kind, innocent, and wonderful. But certain elites have behaved in ways that are hard to respect.

Some of them have wished pain upon me and then tried to frame it as if I consented to that pain or brought it on myself. That is not true. I pray that more people will join me in praying for protection and for these harmful patterns to stop.

What concerns me most is this: if I were to die – whether by my own hand or otherwise – I fear they might take revenge on my family members. My mom, my dad, and even my relatives in China whom they seem to be monitoring. That thought disturbs me deeply.

I know some readers might think I sound confused or unwell. I don't know what strategies they will use to discredit me. But I am certain they have the capacity to harm others in my family, and that weighs on me.

Still, I am thankful that I do not have to live near these people in real life. I am not imprisoned among them. I can remain celibate and childless, which spares me from additional complications. I was baptized in the name of Christ Jesus, believing in the Holy Trinity. I am not the one doing harm to them. I trust that God loves me and the people around me.

Sometimes, in frustration, I speak bluntly. They have accused me of being heartless, demonic, or evil because I have lived a relatively comfortable life as a graduate student with living parents in Canada. They have said I lack compassion for people in wars, for the homeless, for the suffering. This is false. I want to reduce pain and suffering as much as anyone. I want the world to be more kind and more godly.

Yet they project harmful thoughts into my family members' minds – both in China and here – and try to place generational burdens on us. They seem to believe this is justified because my family has not suffered enough (no homelessness, no disability, etc.). They have even said they hope I face tragedy and ruin.

You can judge for yourself. I believe these are the same people who profit from war and from systems that make their own citizens homeless, sick, or trapped in injustice. Most people are lawful and good. But these particular individuals have accused me of liking racism, prejudice, and suffering – which is completely false.

I try to treat others as I wish to be treated. I do not drain the energy and happiness from others, which is what these people seem to do to me, my family, entire nations, and even political and military leaders. They appear to want more suffering and corruption in the next generation, perhaps to feel superior in comparison to ordinary civilians.

I reject that path. I bless everyone. I pray that more people turn toward God and Jesus Christ, live morally, and leave behind harmful ways. Amen.

I also pray that people who come into wealth – especially those new to it – are not corrupted by old, unhealthy social circles. Some elite families have grown angry when I pray for them to become more decent and kind. But I am simply telling the truth as I see it.

I think there is cowardice in hating that an ordinary person like me can follow Jesus Christ. Some seem to want to pull sincere people down while pretending at the last minute to be good themselves. That is not sincere.

I bless all nations, all lovely people, and my family. I ask for protection from whatever generational patterns have been aimed at us. These are things to consider.