On My Mother, Their Lies, and Moving Forward in Truth

 

A Statement of Love and Documentation

I have always loved my mother. She is the closest person to me. I love my parents deeply. Throughout this entire ordeal, that has never changed.

The surveillance operators try to twist this. They call me, my statement, and this blog a "lying bar book", a reference to Bar-Jesus from the Bible, a sorcerer who opposed the Truth, referencing to the actual gospel of Jesus Christ. They claim that my blog and my statements are a "bar book," a false testimony, a deception designed to cover my tracks. They accuse me of already planning to expose and write all of this so that if something were to happen to my mother, I would have an alibi. They say I am creating forensic evidence to prove I did not intend harm, while secretly harbouring wicked intent.

These are lies. They are delusional. They are projections of their own evil onto me.

What I Actually Feel

I love my mother. I have always loved my mother. I want her to be safe, to be happy, to be at peace. I want to live a decent life with her and my father. If God permits me to have that, I will. I am not insane. I am not plotting against her. I am not covering any trail.

What would others do in my situation? As a targeted individual, I do what I can. I reveal my experiences. I tell my parents and others the truth. I document. I seek help. I hold onto my faith.

Yes, the process causes distress. My mother is skeptical. She does not fully understand what is happening to me. When I write, when I reveal, when I speak about these things, it troubles her. I know this. I do not do it to hurt her. I do it because silence benefits the abuser. I do it because the truth matters. I do it because I refuse to let them define who I am.

Their Intentions Toward My Mother

Some of the operators bombard me with lies about my emotions and love toward my mother. They do this for specific reasons:

To Push Her Away. They hope that their lies will make me treat her badly, verbally, emotionally, abusively. They want me to push her away. They want to destroy the bond between us.

To Cause Something Bad to Happen. They hope that something will happen to her, an accident, an injury, a crisis. They want her to be unable to work. They want to affect our financial income. They want to make life harder for both of us.

To Slow Us Down. They want to make our lives more difficult so that documenting this abuse and sharing it with the public becomes harder. They want to exhaust us, to distract us, to break us.

To Create Tragedy. They want a tragedy. They want something worthy of news, of crime, of spectacle. They want to see mourning, hospitals, suffering. Some of them would still be engaging in their rituals even while others grieve.

They have said as much. They have made their intentions clear. They tell me they will surveil everyone around me, acquaintances, friends, strangers. They believe that people connected to me are also spiritually relevant, significant. They want to see if they can influence things in negative ways. Some of them behave like demons from the Bible: sowing death, hell, tragedy, calamity. And then they accuse me of doing these things because I call them out.

 I rebuke all of their wicked intent, curses, and unwanted and unconsensual curses and rituals in the name of Jesus Christ, amen. Where there were curses may they all be replaced with blessings from the most high, Yahweh, God above all Gods, and bless Him with goodness, grace and light. I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Their Accusations About My Intentions

They say I am covering my trail. They say my blog is a preemptive alibi. They say I am writing all of this so that if something happens to my mother, I will not be blamed.

This is a lie. It is a projection. They are the ones who scheme, who plot, who cover their tracks. They are the ones who imagine tragedy and call it justice. They are the ones who say they have already "gored" everyone around me, already imagined people dead, already "touched by the beast" in their minds.

This is what they do. They imagine destruction. They call it prophecy. They accuse me of what they themselves are.

What I Actually Want

I want to live a decent life with my mother and father. I want to tell others about my experience as a targeted individual. I want to document the technologies, the tactics, the abuse. I want to do what is ethical and just.

To live a life of lies, to pretend that none of this happened, to hide what I know, to let others go through what I have gone through without warning, that would be unethical. That would be gross. That would be complicity.

I do not want to be complicit. I want to tell the truth. I want to protect others. I want to live with integrity.

Moving Forward

I plan to find better methods to store and preserve my posts. I want to keep them safe, offline and online. I want to ensure that this documentation lasts, that it can be used by professionals, that it can help others.

I want to live a decent life. I want to be with my mother and father. I want to heal. I want to hold onto my faith.

I am not scared. I am not delusional. I am not that freaked out. Because ultimately, they are just some trashy US elite foes with technologies they did not earn and do not deserve. They think they are more powerful than they are. They are not.

God is divine. God is good. God is untouchable by their rituals, their projections, their perversions. He sees what they do. He will judge fairly, with justice and mercy and grace.

My Blessing for Those Around Me

I bless everyone who has crossed my path. I bless my mother and father. I bless my family. I bless my friends. I bless the acquaintances, the strangers, the people who have come into my life without knowing what I was going through.

You have God's awareness. You have God's protection. You have God's love. You have God's grace.

The operators say they have already "gored" everyone around me. They say they have already imagined people dead. They say that those who cross my path are already "touched by the beast" in their minds.

This is a lie. You are not touched by their evil. You are not cursed by their fantasies. You are seen by God. You are loved by God. You are protected by God.

I bless you in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

My Rebuke

I rebuke their lies about my mother. I rebuke their accusations that I am covering a trail. I rebuke their fantasy that I am plotting harm. I rebuke their desire for tragedy. I rebuke their claim that they have already gored the people around me.

I declare in the name of Jesus Christ: I love my mother. I love my father. I love my family. I am not plotting against them. I am not covering anything. I am telling the truth. I am documenting. I am living with integrity.

I declare that their curses will not touch the people around me. Their fantasies will not become reality. Their desire for tragedy will not come to pass.

The people I love are protected. They are seen. They are blessed. They belong to God, Jesus Christ.

A Final Thought

I do not know how long this will continue. I do not know what the future holds. But I know this: I will continue to tell the truth. I will continue to document. I will continue to love my mother and father. I will continue to hold onto my faith.

They want me to become something I am not. They want me to hate, to harm, to destroy. I will not.

I am a daughter who loves her mother. I am a survivor who documents. I am a Christian who holds onto faith in the middle of evil. That is who I am. That is who I will remain.

References & Notes

On Bar-Jesus (Elymas)

In Acts 13:6-12, Bar-Jesus (also called Elymas) is described as a Jewish sorcerer and false prophet who opposed the apostles and tried to turn the proconsul away from the faith. The operators call me a "lying bar book" to accuse me of deception and false testimony. This is projection: they are the ones who oppose the truth.

On the Manipulation of Family Relationships

Abusers often target the victim's closest relationships. They try to create conflict, to isolate, to destroy the bonds that provide support and stability (Stark, 2007; Coercive Control). The operators' tactics toward my mother fit this pattern.

On Documentation as Protection

Documenting abuse is not a cover-up. It is an act of resistance. It creates a record, provides evidence, and helps prevent the abuser from controlling the narrative (Herman, 1992; Trauma and Recovery).

Biblical References

  • Acts 13:6-12  Bar-Jesus the sorcerer who opposed the truth.

  • Exodus 20:12  "Honour your father and your mother."

  • Proverbs 31:28  "Her children rise up and bless her."

  • Isaiah 54:17  "No weapon that is formed against you will succeed."

  • Psalm 27:1  "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?"

  • Romans 12:19  "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay, says the Lord."

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