FORMAL TESTIMONY: To Intelligence Agencies, Governments, Churches, and the Public: On Character Assassination, the Targeting of My Family, and the Truth They Cannot Erase
On the Portrait They Try to Paint
By now, the surveillance operators and their handlers have ample data collection on me. They have spent years building a file, trying to sketch a portrait of me as a race traitor, race‑hating, racist, wicked, vile, jealous, and someone who says extremely racist things toward white people. In fact, they subtly encourage this and enjoy when I say racist things directed at the operators, who just so happen to be white Americans forming the cult and the secret societies.
In true honesty, this is not fair. I am not hateful toward "white" people at all. But if you were in my shoes, subjected day after day to what these specific individuals have done to me, my family, and others (including infants, minors, and elders), you would feel disgust over their actions. That is not racism. That is a natural human response to targeted abuse.
Some of the operators try to "serenade" me or pretend to nag at me, mixing harassment with mock affection. Every time I express my disgust toward them and their character, and every time I build up a true sense of dissociation, physically, from the vileness they put me through, they nag at me as if flirting, calling me a "liar." They likely screenshot me from the internet and from video conferences as I live my normal life, trying to curate a narrative that I am narcissistic, sociopathic, or psychopathic. If anything, they often try to encourage me to be an actor, a performer, actually calling me an idol, a goddess, and other forms of false flattery, hoping I will amp up narcissistic behaviours: to take more photos, to show my face more on my laptop camera, and so on. They do all of this while simultaneously doing perverse things to me and building up this vile and unprecedented profile of the person I actually am and strive to be.
But here is what they cannot fake: my parents are my alibi. They are extremely lawful, hardworking, law‑abiding, kind, and decent human beings. I can swear on everything I hold sacred that there is no bad evidence against them. Their character speaks for itself.
The Jennifer Pan Comparison & The Attack on My Mother
These days, their strategy is to strongly compare me to Jennifer Pan, to say I am wicked and evil, trying to exploit my mother, and worse. Truly, they sometimes try to sow narratives of sadism, cannibalism, incest, perversion, and violence toward my mom, making me think these things when she is around me, while certain operators do vile things, and make it known to me they are doing these things. This causes both of us immense distress.
My mother is already exhausted. She is the main breadwinner in our family in Canada, working full time at a supermarket. She has lacked consistent financial support from my father (his business has been slow and tough since COVID‑19) and from me (I am paid from my research work, but it is modest).
I believe their goal is vile: they hope that by making me look wicked toward my mother, they might somehow get her to turn away from me, or worse. They want me to lose my main source of relationship, support, love, comfort, language connection to my cultural heritage, and the alibi of my character as a daughter and who I have been growing up.
If they can paint me as another Jennifer Pan, they can then argue that I am now trying to trick law enforcement, military intelligence agencies, and psychologists, as if I am narcissistic enough to think I can get everyone on my side.
I Am Not Trying to Get Anyone To Believe I Am a Saint or An Angel
Let me be clear: I am not trying to get anyone to think I'm a particularly "good" person. I have already sent my statement to intelligence agencies and journals in the US, Canada, China, and other nations in Europe, Africa, and Asia. This is not a campaign for allies. It is simply a means to be honest about the abuse I have endured and survived, through going to church and believing in Jesus Christ, who gave me healing and the truth to figure out what I am exposing and writing with this level of reflexivity.
I know there are ample people with better character than me in terms of ethics, human rights, kindness, compassion, empathy, and love. I do not paint myself as a saint or an angel. I am someone who is a Targeted Individual, and a Christian who puts my Faith in Jesus Christ, under immense injustice and extremely disturbing cult abuse. I now understand why they attacked the relationship between my mother and me so much, they were trying to "sow a baal" between us, to destroy the most foundational love in my life.
I am also certain a lot of people could be laughing at my testimony, and that is fine.
On Faith, Blasphemy Accusations, and Grace
They constantly call me a blasphemer and a "lying freak" whenever I say I put my faith in Jesus Christ, love the gospel, and attend church. But Jesus Christ literally died for sinners. The Bible says it is through grace, not works, that we are saved. Their accusations do not change that truth.
They think that because I am able to be calculated, reflective, and endure disgusting unlawful "jokes" and implied activities (some involving minors), it must reflect badly on my character, as if my survival and composure prove I am somehow complicit. They think that because I can still go to the public and live a decent life, it is a point against me.
But I have learned from other Targeted Individuals who wrote books on continuing to survive. I have naturally adapted some of their suggestions. (See for example: Surviving and Thriving as a Targeted Individual, which documents how targets learn to endure.)
Project Monarch, Personality Locking, and My Age
I am only in my twenties. People's personalities change a lot throughout their lives. Often people mellow out and become more compassionate and kinder as they get older. But in my case, they have tried to create a Project Monarch out of me.
For those who do not know: Project Monarch refers to alleged CIA‑backed mind‑control programs that used trauma, drugs, and ritual abuse to create programmed personalities, often splitting or "locking" a person into a particular state. Whether or not the historical program exists as described, the techniques being used on me mirror that: they have tried to "lock" my personality into being psychopathic, perverse, apathetic, detached, and trauma‑based, to then make me seem like a Jennifer Pan, a terrorist, a China spy, or a monster.
On Intelligence Coordination and Character Assassination
I would not be surprised if intelligence services are already working together monitoring me. The US surveillance operators are probably trying to make me look bad to Canadian organizations and intelligence agencies, accusing me of lies, such as claiming I do not care about Canada, implying "at least it's not China." Throughout the abuse, I have had moments showing a preference and love toward China, because it is the most populated country in the world, and I do hold love and pride toward my heritage. But they twist that to call me a Nazi or a "white worshipper" in the same breath, which makes no sense.
This contradiction is done on purpose. They try to switch my mindset and mental health to be treated as a criminal, a terrorist, a Nazi, an antisemite, a homophobe, a racist, a "pervert," and more. They are painting me as this, and could be sending unrepresentative moments of my immense anger and trauma to other intelligence agencies and services, to say I am against humanity and against different types of people, all while they taunt and accuse me of exhibiting the very traits they are trying to force onto me. Truly, this is what they actively do around the clock.
On My Actual Beliefs and Character
In Canada, I lacked these negative sentiments prior to their surveillance harassment starting. Though honestly, I unfortunately have been a witness to racist and gross rhetoric communicated by strangers on the internet, on YouTube, 4chan, Reddit, and elsewhere. I realize many of the racist and bigoted comments from random people I have never talked to do not represent my actual beliefs, and they do not influence how I try to see people of different genders, sexes, races, and classes with the same sense of respect and goodness. The surveillance operators accuse me of lying about this as I write.
I have never identified with Nazi rhetoric, I have neither researched nor cared enough about it, nor antisemitic rhetoric. Likewise, I have always had a lack of interest regarding politics, and I am not exceptionally educated enough to have cared about American politics prior to their obvious harassment. I am not a Nazi nor an antisemite, and I find the injustice and inequities perpetuated by some of these surveillance people's ancestors revolting.
I have evidence, based on previous statements and conversations with friends, that I am not as terrible as they accuse me of. I don't want to seem so detached and unemotional as I defend myself. But in a situation like this, where I am the victim of immense perversion, with certain satanic pedophile surveillance operators trying to equate my life and death to Baal, and implying they would get me to snap to include my mom or another random person, child, baby, or friend from my life, I will be sure to be comprehensive in calling them out. Even as I write this, they continue to make their cursing and discontent obvious.
My Alibi: Friends, Family, and History
As a working-class immigrant in Canada who is currently struggling alongside my mom, my friends from childhood, high school, and university are my alibi. They know I am not these terrible things they accuse me of. I have never had major altercations or obvious racist, sexist, or wicked experiences with people of any race. Now, the operators are apparently painting me as homophobic, racist, ageist, and more toward other intelligence agencies and organizations they may be working with on a global scale, trying to cancel me before I can expose them, or at least to reduce credibility and skepticism toward my writings.
A Final Rebuke
Either way, I rebuke their lies in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
They Are Ahead of the Game, But Truth Stands
Perhaps this is why, as I write more and reveal more to other countries about my experiences, they are already ahead of the game. They work with people in other agencies and organizations to have me on the radar, while simultaneously doing obvious, subtle, and intrusive abusive crimes against me. They then justify it by saying I would be "okay" if it weren't for them doing satanic rape and murder rituals to me and my mother.
Throughout these months, I have never known just how much they actually do and know, or what they do to others in my life. How mature and intelligent do they expect me to be? Even as I go through so much turmoil, my extremely decent and kind parents do not even want to believe me. Working on this statement makes them feel against me, even hateful. It is so tough creating this statement and blog when my mother accuses me of not moving past my traumas, when she does not even completely believe how much disgusting abuse I endure at my and her expense, and that it is still going on.
Most people who read this would not believe it. I completely understand on my mom's behalf. People would experience immense trauma and shock from believing something like this, something from a sci‑fi dystopia, could be true. She loves me so much. She would not want to believe that her daughter, whom she tries to love and protect, could go through something so terrible and still have the surveillance operators in her life, trying to "furrow" in her mind, along with the disgusting accusations said by adults using children's voices with speech impediments. It is disgusting even saying that.
(SIDE NOTE: And I need to add this, it is still disgusting, absolutely revolting, what I continue to tolerate from surveillance operators. Even now, as I write this, the mockery persists. The names, vile taunts, rooted in racism, sexism, perversion, elitism, thrown at me around the clock, sometimes timed strategically, with gross, modified male and female voices alike.
They frame me as the problem, but I have come to understand that this reflects what they themselves are immersed in. They place me in this role to drag me down to their level, to justify themselves. I believe part of it is a twisted hope: if I can endure the intensity, the disgust, the rituals, the abuse, the vile material they involve my image in without my consent, then they can tell themselves they might still be redeemable. If my anger and disgust and them "sinning for me", as they say, and now accuse me of, and trying to mind wash me, saying it's as if I enjoy them doing this, if I can be cast as an "actor" in the kind of content they fabricate, using my likeness and the likeness of others around me, it gives them comfort and satisfaction, knowing they can make decent people just as revolting, deviant, and gross like them, and still hope to make it to heaven.
The presence is verminous. Parasitic. And they know this. They acknowledge it, justify it, and make it clear they will remain until the "end".
Needless to say, I know that Jesus Christ will judge each and every one of us individually, as we stand in front of God, and I know that then, there, He will be able to know us individually, speak to us individually, and know we try to be a decent, law-abiding, compassionate person towards ourselves, others, and the world.
Shock, Coping, and Moving Forward
I did not know how to approach this situation. Initially I had moments of immense suicidal ideation. I thought it would be fine to just leave without having any of this processed or written. Truly, even now, I am still in a state of shock and coping.
Imagine never being able to have your mind be your own, knowing that these surveillers would be there until your very last breath. Of course it would influence your ethics, mental health, and temperament, probably for the worse. But regardless of the biases and lies they tell others at higher levels, as I expose my writings of them and their wicked abuse, I hope that others in positions of power can see that I do not see myself as better, smarter, or more spiritual than any of you.
I am just a truly average Chinese Canadian who has survived something incredible. Through my love of the Gospel, of Jesus Christ who died for my sins, and the Holy Spirit who sanctifies these wicked sins imposed on me by the surveillance operators, hopefully we can all be saved and have solace during these unpredictable times.
A Final Prayer
I pray we all have peace, goodness, and love.
In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
References
- Surviving and Thriving as a Targeted Individual Under Surveillance
ISBN: 1549542931
This book documents strategies that targets have naturally developed to endure long‑term organized stalking and psychological harassment. - Advice for the Targeted Individual & Gang Stalking Victim (ISBN: 1505826047)
- Hey Mom, I’m a Targeted Individual (ISBN: 1980676143)
- The Story of a Targeted Individual (ASIN: B0CVMDXHYV)
Ana, a child of Jesus Christ
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