A Testimony - Surveillance Used for Spiritual Pollution and Identity War

 

 

Preface

I want to be clear from the beginning: I value Godliness, safety, sanctification, and faith. I despise demonic material made by creeps from anywhere in the world. I am not a perpetrator. I have never made or supported the kind of vile content that some people generate. I am a sinner saved by grace, and I turn from my sins daily. This is my testimony. I write to warn others and to keep myself accountable to the truth.

What I Have Endured

For some time now, I have been subjected to targeted psychological harassment delivered through digital devices. Through speakers, headphones, and smart technology, a small number of individuals - some mentally unwell, some spiritually corrupted - have tried to provoke me, manipulate my emotions, and make me doubt my own perceptions.

They do not merely watch. They attack. They bombard me with ugly noises, guttural sounds, distorted voices, and intrusive suggestions. They try to pollute my mind deliberately, as if testing to see if the Holy Spirit inside me can be touched by filth. This is not accountability. This is sacrilege.

These individuals have also tried to pressure me into creating disturbing content myself - content they have already generated using the same technologies. I refuse. I want nothing to do with such material. It is ugly, perverse, and contrary to everything I believe as a follower of Jesus Christ.

The Accusations and Projections

What is most painful is that these same people accuse me of being like them. They say I lie. They say I am deviant. They project onto me the very behaviors they themselves engage in. For example, they have suggested through twisted symbolism that I disrespect my parents - or worse, that I have done terrible things to my family. These accusations are false. I believe this is a form of psychological warfare: they try to make me feel guilty for their own sins.

Some of these individuals seem genuinely unwell. Their behavior has a frantic, almost demonic quality - obsessive, cruel, and disconnected from reality. They accuse me of being against God, even though I openly declare that Jesus Christ is my only Lord and Saviour. They try to normalize perversion, corruption, violent entertainment, and occult practices. They mimic the lies of Satan - suggesting that evil is normal, that righteousness is foolish, that cruelty to children is somehow acceptable. This is abhorrent to me.

Why I Believe This Happens

I cannot read hearts, but I see a pattern. Some of these people are envious. They see that their physical power and weapons cannot dominate every place they wish to control - especially parts of Asia. So instead, they try to colonize the mind. They wage a war on human consciousness. They want to make people dirty, confused, ashamed, and turned away from Godliness. Peer pressure is their tool: constant repetition of lies until the lies feel true.

But I also believe many of them are trapped themselves. They have been consumed by the very perversion they spread. They are not happy people. Their ugliness comes from emptiness. They make ugly noises and images because they have lost the ability to recognize beauty, holiness, or peace.

The War on Consciousness

What these individuals attempt is not simple harassment. It is a war on human consciousness. They try to rewrite identities, reshape personalities, and break people down until they no longer know who they are. The technology they use is invasive enough to kill - through stress, through despair, through physical breakdown. They play God. That is vile.

Some of them even frame their actions as pushing toward Armageddon, as if manufacturing chaos could force Jesus Christ to return sooner. This is wicked and foolish. Christ will return in His own time. He does not need their perversion to help.

Why I Am Not Broken

Despite their efforts, I remain anchored. I know Jesus Christ is my only Lord and Saviour. My parents follow the same God - a clean God who does not change. I have put my faith in Him. These foes accuse me of lying when I say this, but I am not lying. My life, my choices, my refusal to make or share their disgusting content - all of it proves otherwise.

My own family, my Chinese parents and relatives, cannot even understand what I endure. They live in a nation that is safer and more pure. I am glad they do not have to know this ugliness.

I am not a mother, but I know that protecting the vulnerable matters. I have not created victims. I do not support perpetrators. I simply tell the truth about what has been done to me and what I have witnessed.

My Response

I will not make the content they want me to make. I will not become like them. I seek sanctification, not scandal. I value safety, not fear.

Surveillance can be a tool for control, but it cannot touch a soul that belongs to God. They can watch. They can make ugly noises. They can lie. But they cannot take my faith, my dignity, or my hope.

Final Comfort

Vanity of vanities, all is vanity except for God's words. These people will die one day. Their false accusations will not follow me beyond this flesh. I will leave my body behind and go to a better place - not because I am perfect, but because I put my faith in Jesus Christ, who died for my sins.

They can watch. They can lie. They can try to pollute. But they cannot take my salvation. And they cannot make me become like them.

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