Part 3, Par Idolatry: Ritual Desecration, Indirect Liability, and the "Long Game"

In which I examine the symbolic dimensions of my treatment, the tactic of vicarious perpetration, the long-term implications for my family and community, the manufactured motive of jealousy as a tool to induce criminality, the theological inversion by which the projector of evil bears guilt, and the spiritual warfare underlying the assault on consciousness.

Section	Title
3.1	Who "They" Are: The American Elite Surveillance Apparatus
3.2	Commodification and Ritual Degradation: The Mount Ebal Prohibitions
3.3	The Enemy Designation: A Self-Identifying Admission
3.4	The Restrainer: Why They See Me as an Obstacle
3.5	The Two Modes of Operation: Explicit and Implicit, and the Construction of a False Profile
3.6	The Exploitation of OCD Intrusion: Induced Symptoms and Manufactured Guilt
3.7	The Beast of the Sea: Collective Consciousness and the Attempt to Corrupt
3.8	The War on Consciousness: A Term and a Reality
3.9	The Biblical Warning: The Return of Unclean Spirits
3.10	Forced Complicity: Making the Victim Feel Responsible
3.11	The Long Game: Family, Community, and Intergenerational Harm
3.12	The Manufactured Motive: Jealousy as a Tool to Induce Murder
3.13	A Confession: The YMCA Incident
3.14	The Baal Projection: Imagining False Realities and the Sin of the Imager
3.15	On Lying: Confession, Accusation, and the Identity They Want to Impose
3.16	On Being Accused of Wanting to Be Part of the American Elite
3.17	A Warning About Changing Scripture
3.18	A Seal of Protection: Grounded in Jesus Christ
3.19	On OCD Intrusion: You Are Not Guilty for Unwanted Thoughts
3.20	On Being Disbelieved: Why I Speak Anyway
3.21	A Final Word on Knowledge, Wisdom, and the Limits of Elite Arrogance
3.22	On Historical Atrocities and the False Promise of Power Through Degradation
3.23	The Nuclear Bomb Obsession: Symbolism and Projection
3.24	On the Accusation of Cursing Parents
3.25	On Financial Reality and Accusations of Profit
3.26	Physical Observation: A Forensic Note for Intelligence Agencies
3.27	On Projection, Reputation, and the Attempt to Blacklist
3.28	On My Nature and God's Presence
3.29	On the Lies and Intrusive Imagery They Implant
3.30	Conclusion: Faithful to the End
3.31	My Signature: Sealing This Testimony in My Own Name

3.1 Who "They" Are: The American Elite Surveillance Apparatus

Before proceeding, it is necessary to identify clearly who I am referring to throughout this text. The "they" I describe are not figments of imagination nor vague abstractions. They are specific individuals operating within networks that span secret societies, elite institutions, and state apparatuses.

Secret Societies and Symbolic Lineages:

These individuals are connected to secret societies including Freemasonry, Scientology, and what is colloquially referred to as the "Illuminati"—networks that trace their symbolic lineage to old American families with longstanding ties to occult and ritual practices. The Eye of Providence, or the All-Seeing Eye—a symbol depicting an eye enclosed in a triangle and surrounded by rays of light—appears on the US dollar bill and the Great Seal of the United States. In Renaissance Christian art, this symbol represented divine guidance and God's watchfulness over humanity. In Freemasonry, it is understood as a symbol of the "Great Architect of the Universe." Yet in the hands of those who have inverted spiritual truth for material power, such symbols become tools of psychological warfare—reminders to their targets that they consider themselves to be watching, judging, and operating with a form of sovereignty they attribute to themselves rather than to God.

These individuals are not merely bureaucrats or functionaries. They are inheritors and practitioners of esoteric traditions that have been co-opted to justify domination. Their rituals, their symbolism, their use of secret knowledge—all of it serves to create a shared identity among themselves, a bond of secrecy and superiority that allows them to commit acts of degradation while believing themselves justified.

Institutional Networks:

Their network spans universities—including Harvard, Dartmouth, and other elite institutions—corporations, military intelligence, and private surveillance contractors. Many are Democrats, a political affiliation that does not preclude (and in some cases facilitates) the operation of these networks within the administrative and donor classes of elite institutions. I have revealed many of them through my previous blog posts, documenting their identities and their actions.

These individuals are American elites, predominantly white, both men and women, who occupy positions of institutional power and who have deployed that power to conduct a sustained campaign of psychological warfare against me.

The Reality of Their Existence:

These individuals are alive, breathing, and present. They eat, they sleep, they occupy physical space. They are not random voices or random imaginations; they are human beings who have chosen to weaponize their access to technology and their positions within hierarchical institutions to engage in behaviour that is, by any ethical or spiritual standard, reprehensible. Some of them are the same class behave as the people exposed in files such as Epstein's network—that is, individuals who believe their wealth, connections, and institutional cover permit them to operate above the law.

The Projections They Place on Me:

Some of them call me the devil. Some of them call me a liar. Some of them call me a school shooter, a terrorist, a suicide bomber, an incel, a predator, a Baal worshipper, a nuclear bomb "advocate". Sometimes they call me these things; at other times, the accusations are implied, the vocal abuse and pollution calculated to induce specific psychological responses. They want me to have degrading ideas of becoming what they accuse me of being the desecrated version of how they perceive me, as a foe. They attempt to implant these suggestions repeatedly, hoping that repetition will lead to internalization.

But I am not what they say I am. I am a graduate student pursuing higher education with goals in healthcare, forensic psychology and, if possible, contributing to intelligence and lawfulness through recognized, established legal institutions. I am, thankfully, too old, to be drawn into the grotesque fantasies they project. I have real goals, real credentials, real ambitions to work within systems that uphold law and justice, rather than to write "fiction" on the internet for attention or profit. I also have the network of people who are lawful, clear-headed, and accomplished people to feel relatively "safe" that I can always avoid these bad actors in society, now and in the future.

Some of the operators say they will try to make sure I am a "crazy nobody." They want to ensure that I never gain the credentials, credibility, or institutional backing to be taken seriously. They want to keep me isolated, dismissed, disbelieved. But I am pursuing education, I am pursuing legitimacy, and I am documenting everything so that when the time comes, I can present this not as the testimony of a "crazy nobody" but as the documented record of a researcher who endured and exposed what was done to her.

The Symbolic Inversion:

They project onto me every pathology they themselves possess. And they do this while occupying positions of institutional legitimacy—positions from which they believe they can act with impunity. What they fail to understand—or perhaps understand and reject—is that their symbols, their rituals, their secret knowledge, and their institutional power do not make them gods. They make them accountable. And there is a God who sees not only the projections they imagine but the hearts they refuse to examine.

3.2 Commodification and Ritual Degradation: The Mount Ebal Prohibitions

The surveillance operators have established a framework in which I am treated as an object of ritual significance—specifically, as a substitute idol, a Baal figure, a vessel for practices that are explicitly condemned in Scripture. The language they use—"paying" for abuse, calling me cheap, reducing me to a dollar amount—reveals the underlying logic of commodification: a human being reduced to a transaction, a thing to be used and discarded. This is not random cruelty but ritualized degradation with symbolic meaning.

Two-Sided Structure of the Network:

The network operating against me exhibits a two-sided structure. One faction consists of individuals who claim to be Christian and who, by their own stated beliefs, know that the practices they engage in are explicitly forbidden by Christian doctrine. Their participation in rituals of degradation, psychological warfare, and attempted spiritual corruption represents a deliberate inversion of the faith they profess. They know that what they do violates the commandments of the God they claim to serve; this knowledge does not deter them but may constitute part of the intended violation.

The other faction consists of individuals who actively practice satanism, Baal worship, and other forms of occult ritual. Their orientation is not hypocritical Christianity but explicit opposition to Christian teaching. This duality within the network—nominal Christians who knowingly violate their professed faith alongside explicit practitioners of satanic ritual—has been observed in critiques of American elite corruption. Russian President Vladimir Putin, among others, has made public statements characterizing certain elements of the American elite as satanic in their practices and orientation. While such statements are politically charged, they point to a documented reality: that networks of elite power in the United States have long incorporated occult and satanic practices as part of their internal bonding mechanisms and rituals of domination.

The Scriptural Prohibitions:

What they are doing aligns with practices explicitly prohibited in Scripture. In Deuteronomy 27, Mount Ebal is designated as the mountain of curses for those who break God's law. The prohibitions listed include:

"Cursed be the man who makes a carved or cast metal image, an abomination to the Lord, a thing made by the hands of a craftsman, and sets it up in secret." (Deuteronomy 27:15)

The operators have set me up as an image—a false idol, a Baal substitute—in secret, using me as a vessel for their rituals of degradation.

"Cursed be anyone who dishonors his father or his mother." (Deuteronomy 27:16)

They have targeted my relationship with my mother, implanting murder and hurt ideas directed toward her, attempting to corrupt the bond between parent and child. This directly violates the commandment to honor father and mother (Exodus 20:12).

"Cursed be anyone who strikes down his neighbor in secret." (Deuteronomy 27:24)

Their surveillance is secret, non-consensual, and strikes at the psychological and spiritual wellbeing of their target. This constitutes striking down in secret—using technology as the weapon.

"Cursed be anyone who takes a bribe to shed innocent blood." (Deuteronomy 27:25)

They seek to induce suicide, murder, or violent breakdown—shedding innocent blood by proxy, through manufactured means.

The operators know these prohibitions. They know the God of Israel explicitly warns against doing these things. Their knowledge does not deter them; it is part of the point. By knowingly violating what God has forbidden, they position themselves in opposition to the God they claim to serve.

The "Enemy" Justification:

They designate me as an enemy. In their logic, this designation permits what would otherwise be forbidden. But this justification is a corruption of Christian teaching. Jesus Christ is explicit:

"But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven." (Matthew 5:44-45)

There is no exception clause for ritual degradation. There is no permission to imagine your enemy in degrading ways. There is no license to induce psychosis or suicide in those you have labeled adversary. The command is to pray—not to project, not to curse, not to perform esoteric rituals hoping to manifest destruction.

What they do instead is the antithesis of Christ's teaching. They have taken the concept of "enemy" and used it to justify practices that belong to Baal worship, not to the worship of Yahweh. They have inverted the commandment: rather than praying for their enemy, they perform rituals against their enemy, hoping to corrupt, break, and ultimately destroy.

3.3 The Enemy Designation: A Self-Identifying Admission

They call me an enemy. I take them at their word. In doing so, they reveal something crucial: they recognize, perhaps more clearly than they would openly admit, that their actions are incompatible with Christianity. Because I am a Christian—because I experience the Holy Spirit as healer and sanctifier—they treat me with particular intensity. Their aim is to make me walk away from God, to reject grace, and ultimately to become the very antichrist they already accuse me of being.

This dynamic demonstrates that they possess a working knowledge of right and wrong, good and evil—just as I do. That awareness makes their conduct all the more despicable. Their grooming, their false flattery, and their calculated harassment are not random; they are deliberate efforts to provoke a fall from grace. Most explicitly, their objective appears to be turning me away from Jesus Christ. Yet as long as I remain in my faith, they are constrained—they cannot, for instance, directly kill me—so they instead work through indirect means: psychological pressure, social sabotage, and attempts to manipulate my identity.

A recurring tactic is their effort to cast me in the role of a tyrant, likening me to figures such as Hitler. The rationale they project onto me is revealing. They suggest that my continued existence—my refusal to be destroyed by their treatment—is evidence of narcissism, shamelessness, obsession with them, or jealousy of them. These are American elite circles, many of whom operate within cult-like structures, and they appear unable to conceive of a person whose center of gravity lies outside their own world.

The truth is simpler and, to them, incomprehensible: I do not dream of them. I do not seek additional information about them. My life—my graduate studies (in which I maintain A-level work), my church attendance, my real-world friendships, my connections with my Chinese family—proceeds independently of their fixation. I do not need them to exist, let alone to validate me.

Their narcissistic framework, however, cannot accommodate this. To them, everything is interpreted through the lens of self-reference. If I write nothing, they claim I am appeasing them, complicit in their crimes, trying to make myself likeable. If I document everything, they accuse me of reverse psychology—again, supposedly trying to manipulate their perception of me. Both interpretations serve the same function: to position themselves as the central reference point for my actions.

I write this to make clear that I am not insane, nor am I entangled in their framework. I am aware that regardless of what I do—whether I speak or remain silent—they will construct a narrative that serves their own interests. But I do not care about their narratives. I do not care about their future generations. I do not act for their approval, their hatred, or even their ambivalent laughter.

What I reject most fundamentally is their assumption that all human behavior reduces to narcissistic competition. I do not identify young women or men of different races to exploit them. I do not impose my identity, heritage, or worldly status onto others. I do not surveil people with the delusional belief that they are obsessed with me, allowing me to commit crimes against them while they remain complicit out of a desire to impress me. That is their pattern, not mine.

I live for God, not for anyone else. My life is dedicated to Christ, and I seek, however imperfectly, to align myself with God’s will. My writing here is not an attempt to steal knowledge or data from them, as they have accused—nor could it be, given that they have never voluntarily shared such information with me. What I understand of their operations comes not from their disclosure but from the discernment that the Holy Spirit enables: the recognition of unlawful, hypocritical, self-exempting behavior among those who position themselves as above accountability.

I am not obsessed with them. That is precisely why I am able to maintain a real life—one that includes rigorous academic work, authentic relationships, and a living faith in Jesus Christ—while they remain trapped in a cycle of projection, control, and self-delusion.

3.4 The Restrainer: Why They See Me as an Obstacle

There is a concept in Scripture that helps explain why they are so invested in breaking me. In 2 Thessalonians, Paul writes about the coming of the lawless one:

"And you know what is restraining him now so that he may be revealed in his time. For the mystery of lawlessness is already at work. Only he who now restrains it will do so until he is out of the way." (2 Thessalonians 2:6-7)

The identity of the restrainer has been debated by theologians. It could refer to the Holy Spirit, the church, the preaching of the Gospel, or a divinely appointed human authority. What is clear is that there is something—or someone—holding back the full manifestation of lawlessness.

They see me as a type of restrainer—specifically, as someone whose presence holds back their ability to operate without exposure. My documentation, my testimony, my refusal to be silenced restrains their capacity to hide their hypocrisies and crimes. It restrains their ability to keep their technologies, cult rituals, and esoteric knowledge concealed from public scrutiny. It restrains their complete efforts to influence the future, to wage wars, to steal others' data, to seek spiritual knowledge and enlightenment through dubious and unlawful ways, to spy on others globally without victims' knowledge, to advance certain agendas rooted in social Darwinism, eugenics, and racial hierarchy (whether they are completely aware of what they're doing or not, since some of this they do may be subconscious)—particularly with respect to Asian populations. They want these things to proceed without obstacle, without accountability, without exposure.

There is a broader dimension to this as well. Commentators such as Professor Jiang and others have observed that certain factions within elite networks actively seek to accelerate biblical prophecies of calamities—war, environmental collapse, societal breakdown—as a means of consolidating power or fulfilling esoteric narratives. The operators targeting me appear aligned with this accelerationist impulse. They are in a rush. They want things to move quickly toward crisis.

Contrast in Orientation:

This reveals a fundamental difference in orientation. They embrace the logic of the Industrial Revolution: speed, adrenaline, excitement, constant acceleration. Their worldview is oriented toward capitalism's drive for profit, toward the destruction of the environment in pursuit of material gain, toward living in a state of perpetual urgency. They rush toward everything—toward heart attacks, toward collapse, toward the very calamities they claim to fear.

As a follower of Christ, I do not share this orientation. Scripture describes God as "slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love" (Exodus 34:6; Psalm 103:8). God's patience allows space for repentance, for love, for peace. The rush toward destruction is not divine; it is human impatience masquerading as purpose. This is not a claim to personal superiority—it is simply a recognition that the values I am called to as a Christian are fundamentally different from the values they embody.

Their urgency may also be driven by fear: fear that others will catch up to their crimes, fear that their racial and eugenic hierarchies will be exposed as false, fear that they are not actually the superior race they imagine themselves to be. They are scared of being surpassed, of being revealed, of being held accountable.

The Universal Nature of Christianity:

What they fail to understand—or reject—is that Christianity transcends race. In Christ, there is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female (Galatians 3:28). All gentiles and Jews are brothers and sisters in Christ. Christianity is the largest religious population in the world precisely because it is not confined to any ethnicity, nation, or bloodline. Their attempts to racialize spiritual warfare—to make this about Asian versus white, about East Asia versus America—are a category error. God does not care about race in the way they do. He cares about the heart.

The Restrainer Is Not Me Alone:

They have identified me—whether correctly or incorrectly—as someone whose presence, whose faith, whose testimony is holding back something they want to unleash. They believe that if they can break me, corrupt me, silence me, or destroy me, the restraint will be removed and lawlessness will abound.

But the restrainer is not me alone. The restrainer is the Holy Spirit working through me. The restrainer is my faith in Jesus Christ. The restrainer is the Gospel itself—the unedited, unadded, pure message of salvation that I carry and testify to. Through me, the Holy Spirit acts as a barrier against their lawlessness.

They want to take the restrainer out of the way. They see my faith, my sanity, my health, my ability to testify as obstacles to be removed. They hope that by breaking me, they can symbolically break something larger—East Asia, Asian people, my family, the restraint of the Gospel itself.

But they cannot. For the restrainer is not ultimately me. The restrainer is God. And God cannot be removed.

3.5 The Two Modes of Operation: Explicit and Implicit, and the Construction of a False Profile

Among the surveillance operators—these American elites connected to universities, corporations, and military institutions—there are two modes of operation. Some are explicit: they vocalize what they are doing, they let you know they are doing it, they take pleasure in your awareness of their violation. They speak directly, issuing commands, making accusations, projecting their fantasies onto you in real time.

Others operate implicitly. They do not vocalize directly. Instead, they perform these acts to themselves while thinking about you—imagining you in various scenarios, visualizing degrading things, visualizing things being done to you, visualizing things being done to people around you. They attempt to "manifest" these things through concentrated mental intention, believing that their collective imagination can shape reality.

Both modes are violations. Both are forms of spiritual aggression. Both are attempts to corrupt consciousness through means that are not physical but are no less real.

The Presence of Multiple Parties:

There are multiple parties involved in this surveillance operation. Some are blatant: they openly hope you will fail, openly hope for your destruction, and take pleasure in your distress. Others hope for the worst outcomes—that you will become schizophrenic, violent, suicidal, disabled—because these outcomes would serve their narratives. Others are skeptical but prudent: they observe, they document, they reserve judgment, but they are also being manipulated by the false data being generated. Still others actively manipulate what you hear and see, what you think, in order to generate bad data that will taint you and sway neutral observers to see you as having more problems than you actually do.

The Construction of a False Profile:

What they are doing is building a profile—a fabricated identity constructed from artificial data deliberately placed there. They collect and manufacture lies, fabrications, and distortions, then assemble them into a case file that they present as evidence of who you are. Even though the data is fake, even though the artifacts are artificial, the fact that the data exists at all becomes their way of building a false identity for you. They hope that the sheer volume of fabricated data will overwhelm any counter-evidence.

This is a form of malicious misrepresentation. They take pleasure in the fact that their false data can build up a profile of you that is the opposite of who you are. They compare you to figures they themselves have created—pornographers, women with mental illness who seek harmful attention—in an attempt to pervert how Asian women are perceived. All of this is done while some among them claim religious justification.

A Vow Regarding Motherhood and Children:

What these American elites—individuals who have weaponized their institutional positions—have done is such that I make a vow. Having been made an unwilling victim of their collective actions, I will not seek motherhood. I will not have children. I will not allow my experiences to be passed down to the next generation to represent anything about what has been done to me. I take this stance not because I oppose children in principle, but because I am so vehemently opposed to what these people do as a collective that I refuse to allow any child to inherit this legacy. If I were to become pregnant under these circumstances, I would seek termination. This is not a position I take lightly, nor one I would advocate for others, but it is the stance I take given what I have endured.

Rebuke and Cleansing:

I rebuke both modes of operation—the explicit and the implicit—in the name of Jesus Christ. I declare that their projections have no power over me. I cleanse my mind and consciousness of their contamination through the blood of Christ, who is greater than any force they can summon. I reject the false profile they are building. I reject the identity they are trying to impose.

God Jesus Christ and His Holy Spirit sanctify me and forgive me of my sins—intentional or otherwise—against these individuals. The false profile they construct, the evil they purposefully do, is not my identity. My identity is with Jesus Christ.

3.6 The Exploitation of OCD Intrusion: Induced Symptoms and Manufactured Guilt

A central tactic in their operation is the deliberate exploitation of intrusive thoughts. Understanding how intrusive thoughts function is essential to recognizing the nature of this abuse.

The Nature of Intrusive Thoughts:

Intrusive thoughts are unwanted, involuntary thoughts, images, or impulses that enter consciousness without intention and cause significant distress. They are a well-documented phenomenon in clinical psychology, most commonly associated with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD), but they can occur in anyone under conditions of stress, anxiety, or targeted psychological manipulation.

Crucially, intrusive thoughts are ego-dystonic—meaning they are entirely contrary to a person's values, beliefs, and self-concept. A person experiencing an intrusive thought does not desire the thought, endorse the thought, or wish to act on the thought. The thought is experienced as alien, disturbing, and unwanted precisely because it contradicts who the person is. This is why intrusive thoughts cause distress: they are antithetical to the self.

Clinical Management of Intrusive Thoughts:

Standard clinical approaches to managing intrusive thoughts emphasize that the thoughts themselves are not dangerous. The distress comes from the meaning assigned to them and the compulsive attempts to neutralize them. Effective strategies include:

Recognition and labeling: Acknowledging the thought as an intrusive thought, not as a desire or reflection of character.
Non-engagement: Allowing the thought to exist without attempting to suppress or analyze it, which paradoxically reduces its frequency and intensity.
Cognitive defusion: Separating the thought from the self—understanding that having a thought is not the same as believing or acting on it.
Grounding techniques: Redirecting attention to present sensory experience.
Spiritual practices: Prayer, meditation on Scripture, and receiving the sanctifying work of the Holy Spirit.

Weaponization of Intrusive Thoughts:

My abusers understand this mechanism intimately—and they exploit it deliberately. They intentionally feed me disturbing imagery—violent, degrading—knowing it will lodge in my mind as intrusion. They speak of treating human beings as objects. They visualize scenes of self-harm. They implant sensory experiences designed to invade and pollute.

Their objective is to induce intrusive thoughts that they can then use against me. They call me a liar when I remind myself—and them—that these thoughts are intrusive, unwanted, not mine. They attempt to guilt-trip me using the very distress they have manufactured. They hope that by persistently implanting these images, they can "sear" them into my consciousness, make them stick, make them part of my experiences, part of my genetic and spiritual inheritance.

This is the opposite of what Jesus Christ teaches about sowing seeds. In the Parable of the Sower, Christ speaks of sowing seeds of the Kingdom—good seed that produces good fruit (Matthew 13:3-9, 18-23). These people sow seeds of corruption, perversion, and mental illness. They are happy when others behave in ways they can use as evidence.

The Theological Dimension:

What they are attempting is a perversion of the spiritual principle that what is sown is what is reaped (Galatians 6:7-8). They sow corruption, hoping to reap evidence of corruption in me. But they fail to account for the sanctifying power of the Holy Spirit, who protects the mind of the believer and renews it in the image of Christ.

I am able to write this because I see clearly who they are: these are the people behind the surveillance. These are the American elites—alive, breathing—who are so jealous and so angry that they are not as knowledgeable, powerful, or relevant as they once thought they were.

3.7 The Beast of the Sea: Collective Consciousness and the Attempt to Corrupt

There is a spiritual architecture to what they do. Some members of this network reference—whether consciously or instinctively—the imagery of Revelation: the beast of the sea, where the beast's heads share one mind, one consciousness:

"And I saw a beast rising out of the sea, with ten horns and seven heads, and on its horns were ten diadems, and on its heads were blasphemous names." (Revelation 13:1)

Certain operators within the network—particularly those who are explicit in their occult orientation—attempt to create a collective consciousness, a shared mental space where their projections can contaminate. Not everyone in the network shares this explicit goal. Some are merely complicit, some are passive observers, some are skeptical but remain within the structure. However, among the more active participants, there is a stated or implied intention to use collective mental focus as a means of influencing outcomes.

Some of these individuals imply that their goal is to make you want to be white. They imply that you secretly like the deviant things they do. They attempt to groom you in subtle ways—pretending to praise you, pretending to offer acceptance—hoping that in the future you will align with their spiritual orientation. Some among them hope you will turn against China, against East Asia, against your own heritage. Some hope you will become aligned with what they perceive as demonic forces, contributing to the acceleration of conflict and war.

I am me. They are them. Their surveillance technology—which can induce what looks like schizophrenia but is not schizophrenia because the voices and images come from living, breathing American-based elites—does not define me. They are jealous. They are angry. They are not as knowledgeable, powerful, or relevant as they thought they were. Many of them believed the world was their oyster. They believed they could do anything. They believed they could control space exploration, control nations, control consciousness itself.

But these experiences reveal how vast and mysterious the world is. The world is not their turf. They cannot do what they want to do. That is why some of them focus on trying to "furrow into my consciousness," as they often say—a phrase that reveals a parasitic intent, a desire to burrow into another person's mind and personality as an attempt to induce possession, corruption, or degradation. That is why they project images of self-harm, of eggs being laid in the mind, of worms crying in the eye. They are referencing biblical imagery of demonic spirits haunting consciousness—and some among them are attempting to become those spirits.

3.8 The War on Consciousness: A Term and a Reality

The term "war on consciousness" has been articulated by figures such as Dr. Jiang Xueqin and others who study the intersection of elite power, psychological operations, and spiritual warfare. Jiang, a historian, educator, and geopolitical analyst, has developed the concept of "Predictive History"—the idea that by uncovering hidden forces and suppressed truths of the past, one can glimpse future trajectories. Within this framework, he has written extensively on how certain factions within intelligence and corporate structures engage in what he terms a "war on consciousness"—a deliberate attempt to manipulate perception, implant false narratives, and control the cognitive and spiritual frameworks of targeted individuals and populations .

This concept is not isolated to one commentator. Declassified documents from the Cold War era, including those related to MKUltra and other mind-control research programs, confirm that the stated goal of such operations was to influence the emotions, motives, reasoning, and ultimately the behavior of target subjects. The CIA's MKUltra program, conducted from 1953 to 1964, involved testing drugs and psychological techniques on American citizens, in some cases without their knowledge, including research on surreptitious drug administration, experiments on addicts, and the development of "knockout" drugs .

What I am experiencing is a case study in this war. My abusers do not merely surveil me; they attempt to alter the very structure of my consciousness. They attempt to induce mental states that mimic psychosis—not organic psychosis, but induced states created by external psychological aggression. This is consistent with documented techniques of "no-touch torture" and psychological stress induction that have been studied by researchers examining the history of CIA mind-control programs, such as investigative journalist John Marks, whose 1979 book The Search for the "Manchurian Candidate" documented the systematic development of psychological manipulation techniques based on 16,000 pages of declassified CIA documents .

They attempt to make me "switch" in character, to put me in a state of mind where I am not myself, where I am vulnerable to suggestion, where I might act in ways contrary to my nature. They then use these moments—these induced states—as justification for their abuse, pointing to my reactions as proof that I am unstable, dangerous, or demonically influenced.

They try to make me feel and think in unrighteous ways. They exploit the fact that when a person is exposed to violence and degradation—whether through direct experience or through the implantation of grotesque imagery—it can create a state of psychological vulnerability. They attempt to induce this state, then accuse me of having an unclean spirit, as a means to shame me further and justify their continued harassment.

This is not merely psychological abuse. It is spiritual warfare. And it is a direct assault on the sanctification that the Holy Spirit works in those who belong to Christ.

References:

Jiang Xueqin, Predictive History: Geopolitical Analysis and the War on Consciousness. See also Jiang's public lectures on "The War on Consciousness" and "Psychohistory," available via independent media platforms and Jiang's Substack publications.
Central Intelligence Agency, MKUltra: The CIA's Program of Research in Behavioral Modification, declassified documents (1977). See also U.S. Senate Select Committee to Study Governmental Operations with Respect to Intelligence Activities, Final Report: Foreign and Military Intelligence, Book I (Washington, DC: U.S. Government Printing Office, 1976); and Admiral Stansfield Turner's letter to The New York Times, July 16, 1977.
John Marks, The Search for the "Manchurian Candidate": The CIA and Mind Control (New York: Times Books, 1979). See also Marks' interviews and the ABC-TV documentary on the subject.

3.9 The Biblical Warning: The Return of Unclean Spirits

There is a warning in Scripture that directly applies to what they are attempting:

"When the unclean spirit has gone out of a person, it passes through waterless places seeking rest, but finds none. Then it says, 'I will return to my house from which I came.' And when it comes, it finds the house empty, swept, and put in order. Then it goes and brings with it seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they enter and dwell there, and the last state of that person is worse than the first." (Matthew 12:43-45)

When God, through repentance, faith in Jesus Christ, and baptism, cleanses a person of evil spirits, there is a danger: if the person does not remain filled with the Holy Spirit, the spirits may return with even more evil companions. The emptied state—the house swept clean but vacant—becomes vulnerable to reoccupation by forces more destructive than before.

This is what they are attempting. Some among them have made their objective explicit: to induce a state of emptiness—through isolation, through despair, through manufactured mental illness and psychological destabilization—so that they can fill the void with their own corruption. Their stated aim is to produce an outcome worse than the initial state, a condition of greater vulnerability to the pathologies they themselves embody: jealousy, voyeurism, deviancy, race obsessions, pursuit of power and greed, narcissism, pride—the full constellation of pathologies characteristic of the network projecting onto me.

The warning in Matthew serves as both a description of spiritual vulnerability and a caution against leaving the self unguarded. The Holy Spirit is the guardian. Faith, prayer, and abiding in Christ constitute the occupancy that prevents reoccupation by unclean spirits.

3.9 The Biblical Warning: The Return of Unclean Spirits

There is a warning in Scripture that directly applies to what they are attempting:

"When the unclean spirit has gone out of a person, it passes through waterless places seeking rest, but finds none. Then it says, 'I will return to my house from which I came.' And when it comes, it finds the house empty, swept, and put in order. Then it goes and brings with it seven other spirits more evil than itself, and they enter and dwell there, and the last state of that person is worse than the first." (Matthew 12:43-45)

This is what they are attempting. Some among them have made their objective explicit: to induce a state of emptiness—through isolation, through despair, through manufactured mental illness and psychological destabilization—so that they can fill the void with their own corruption. Their stated aim is to produce an outcome worse than the initial state, a condition of greater vulnerability to the pathologies they themselves embody: jealousy, voyeurism, deviancy, race obsessions, pursuit of power and greed, narcissism, pride—the full constellation of pathologist characteristic of the network projecting onto me.

3.10 Forced Complicity: Making the Victim Feel Responsible

One of the more insidious tactics is what I term forced complicity: they structure the interaction so that the victim feels responsible for violations committed by the perpetrators. This is achieved through multiple mechanisms.

Induced Exhaustion:

They deliberately induce states of physical and mental exhaustion—through sleep disruption, sustained psychological pressure, and the constant demand for vigilance—so that the victim lacks the energy to maintain clear boundaries. In this depleted state, the ability to distinguish between one's own actions and the projections of others becomes compromised.

Implied Scenarios:

They employ suggestive language designed to provoke the victim into visualizing degrading scenarios. They will mention a person's name in a knowing tone, implying that something is happening with that person, without stating it explicitly. The intent is to trigger the victim's mind to fill in the gap—to imagine the scenario they are implying. When the victim "gets it"—when the implication is understood—they use this as evidence that the victim is complicit, connected, or somehow responsible for the imagined content.

The logic is inverted: they create the implication, the victim's mind naturally completes the pattern (as human cognition does with implication), and then they claim that the victim's comprehension constitutes participation or desire. This is a form of gaslighting that weaponizes normal cognitive function against the person.

Deepfakes and Monitoring:

They take images of people around me and imply that they are monitoring them. They capture others in deepfakes—digital forgeries that place individuals in compromising or fabricated situations—and then make me aware of these images. The intent is to make me feel responsible for the violation of these individuals, as if my existence or my failure to comply has brought surveillance upon them.

The cumulative effect is to make the victim feel that their presence brings harm to others. This is a classic abuse tactic: make the victim feel like the problem, so they isolate and accept the treatment as deserved.

Theological Clarification:

It is necessary to state clearly: the guilt belongs to those who perform the actions, not to those who are forced to witness or comprehend them. The fact that a victim understands an implication does not constitute endorsement. The fact that a victim's mind, under duress, forms unwanted images does not constitute desire. The sin is in the act of the perpetrator, not in the cognitive response of the targeted individual.

3.11 The Long Game: Family, Community, and Inter-generational Harm

Some of the people running these operations view themselves as playing a long game. They speak of life as a game rather than something to be attributed meaningfully, soulfully, with love. Their intentions extend beyond me. There is a grooming aspect to what they do—a long-term hope that I will become a tragedy: schizophrenic, violent, suicidal. Any of these outcomes would serve their narrative.

But even if I were to die, they would not stop. They would continue surveilling and tailgating my parents, my friends, the people at my church. Their actions do not isolate to me. They extend to everyone affiliated with me. They are waiting for the long-term results, watching to see how the damage propagates through a life and through the lives connected to that life.

This is part of the symbolism for them. It is rooted in race and class—I am Chinese Canadian, outside their imagined sphere of legitimate concern. It is rooted in a desire to see corruption spread across borders, across generations. They are invested in the long arc of destruction.

There is a specific symbolic weight to this for them: if I were to harm my mother, or if she were to harm me, they would treat it as representing something about East Asia, about China. They imagine themselves as agents of a symbolic conquest—corrupting a Chinese Canadian woman and her family as a stand-in for corrupting something larger. My parents are not even fully aware of what I am going through, which adds to the sense of violation. The lack of knowledge on their part becomes another layer of the abuse: I am isolated not only from my community but from my own family's understanding.

And what would they do if they succeeded in breaking me? Would they repent? Would they turn to Christ and claim they had been purified by my destruction? Perhaps they imagine themselves abiding in Christ once I am gone—using me as a "curse" they had to expunge, an artifact in their community's memory. Or perhaps they would say nothing, letting me become nothing in their collective consciousness—remembered only in their biased, flawed perceptions, never from my own perspective. That is why I write. That is why I document. I will not let them have the final word on who I am.

3.12 The Manufactured Motive: Jealousy as a Tool to Induce Murder

One of their more calculated tactics has been to manufacture jealousy in me—or rather, to accuse me of jealousy so persistently that I might internalize the accusation and act on it.

The logic follows a recognizable pattern. Jealousy is a documented motive for murder, as seen in the earliest recorded instance of fratricide: Cain's jealousy toward Abel (Genesis 4:3-8). The association of jealousy with lethal violence is not new; it is a recurring theme in human history and literature.

My abusers explicitly compare me to a known perpetrator of mass violence—a young man of mixed white and Asian descent—calling me a "female version" of this individual. They invoke his name, his actions, and his pathology, projecting them onto me. This comparison serves multiple functions: it is an attempt to induce shame, to create a narrative in which I am already a tragedy in the making, and to justify their continued surveillance and harassment. It is a form of dehumanization that reduces a person to an archetype rather than engaging with them as an individual.

This tactic is consistent with patterns discussed by researchers such as Leo Zagami, who in Volume 11 of his work examines the construction of false narratives and psychological profiles designed to frame individuals as perpetrators of violence. The goal is to create a manufactured trajectory toward murder, shaping perception and expectation so that any eventual outcome can be presented as fulfillment of prophecy. My abusers appear to be employing similar techniques: constructing a false identity for me as a potential killer, hoping that the weight of the accusation alone will influence behavior or justify preemptive action.

The tactic works like this: they position themselves as operating without constraint, doing as they please, while I live a relatively austere life—as God instructs in Scripture. Some of them then attempt to make me feel embittered over this disparity, projecting onto me the very jealousy they themselves seem to harbor toward others, including jealousy and resentment of people who live with integrity or happiness. They attempt to induce in me the full repertoire of emotions that characterize resentment—anti-society, anti-good, anti-friendship, anti-family.

The subtext is always: why has your life become so dark and embittered? They want me to answer that question with violence.

They have also attempted to provoke jealousy toward a specific individual among their group through suggestive comments. The intent is to induce a reaction, then document that reaction as evidence of instability.

To compare a person to a perpetrator of mass violence is to engage in a form of projection that reveals more about the projector than the target. The jealousy they attribute is their own; the violence they imagine is their own. I am not what they say I am.

3.13 A Confession: The YMCA Incident

I need to confess an episode that marked a turning point for me.

During a period of sustained provocation, I was at my local YMCA. The surveillance operators were vocal and abusive as usual. That evening, after being subjected to particularly degrading comments from one of them—a woman toward whom I harbor strong dislike—I became overwhelmed. I went into the bathroom and, in a moment of fury, tore a piece out of the wall. I also, in my agitation, climbed up toward the high ceiling—an act I am not proud of, born of extreme anger and frustration, a feeling of needing to escape, to get out.

It was a defining moment. Not because the destruction was significant—it was not—but because I recognized in myself a capacity for destruction that I did not want to nurture. I saw clearly that if I continued down this path, I would become exactly what they wanted me to be: someone who breaks things, who harms property, who eventually harms people.

Prior to this, I had already been engaging in behaviors that from the outside appeared concerning—muttering vulgarities randomly in public as a means of self-soothing and to talk back to the perpetrators. To an outside observer, this would look like someone who is schizophrenic, talking to themselves, appearing unstable. The operators were pleased by this; it served their narrative.

They themselves would mock me, saying I was "still lawful"—implying that they would not care if I became unlawful, that they were actively encouraging me to break laws. In moments when I was running errands, in stores, they would explicitly try to encourage law-breaking, hoping to corrupt my character and implant intrusive unlawful thoughts. They would literally suggest stealing. They would call me a "stealer," accusing me of stealing their data, their analyses of me, what they were doing on the other side. They would call all sorts of infuriating accusations, often with the intent designed to provoke, to destabilize, to push toward unlawful reaction, major rage responses, or actions that I would regret (e.g., violent outbursts that could results in hurting myself or others, which thankfully I pray to God, Jesus Christ, about, to help prevent such things from happening here on out and in the future).

Of course, in their logic, they had already concluded that I had demonstrated a capacity to be extremely unlawful and wicked—simply by surviving in this situation at all. Having lived as a targeted individual in a large city for more than two years, knowing what they do and what they intend, with awareness of wars and the broader context, they considered my continued existence and my refusal to break as itself a form of transgression. That I had not collapsed, had not complied, had not become what they wanted me to be was, to them, evidence of something "sketchy" about me.

This inversion is telling. In their framework, demons are understood as entities that seek to steal souls, to pull people away from Jesus Christ, to taint purity, to make one forget rightful living and Scripture. Anyone who enjoys harming others, who exploits the pure and innocent, who seeks to corrupt rather than sanctify, who puts others as below them, these can be recognized as operating in a demonic mode. Yet they projected this onto me while embodying it themselves.

Thankfully, the janitor who attended to the bathroom damage was, in that moment, an angel of a man. He seemed to understand something of what was happening when I exited the bathroom, and he was able to fix the wall without incident. I have only ever told my mom about this until now.

Later that evening, as I walked out of the YMCA with my mother, we observed the bright stars in the evening sky. My mother made a comment about how the star is like Yahweh, our Lord Jehovah, who knows everything and is with us. In that moment, the street lights—the traffic lights and the stoplights—completely turned off. We were still able to wait for the bus and get home without incident.

I repent of that episode. I do not want to walk the path of unlawfulness. I do not want to damage public property or anything that is not mine. I have since committed myself to finding better ways to manage my mental state and to seeking external help when needed. That moment was a warning, and I am grateful I heeded it before worse followed.

3.14 The Baal Projection: Imagining False Realities and the Sin of the Imager

There is a deeper layer to what they do, one rooted in a particular esoteric worldview. They have, from their perspective, decided to treat me as a cheap version of Baal—a false god, a substitute, an idol. More than that, they have convinced themselves as a group to imagine random people doing sinful things, and distressing targets by letting know what they imagine.

Their logic appears to be rooted in a form of spiritual manipulation: they believe that by collectively imagining me in these ways, they can influence reality itself. They think their projection can manifest in my actions, that their image of me can override who I actually am. This is the psychology of certain esoteric traditions—the idea that concentrated intention, particularly malicious intention, can shape outcomes.

From my perspective, I could do the same if I wanted to. I could imagine them as the hollow, self-deluded people they are. But that is not the path I choose.

What they fail to understand—or perhaps understand and reject—is that Scripture is clear on this matter. The sin belongs to the one who imagines evil, not the one imagined upon. Jesus taught this explicitly:

"But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart." (Matthew 5:28)

The woman is not guilty because a man imagines her doing things she is not doing. The guilt lies with the one doing the imagining. The same principle applies here. Just because they imagine me committing acts I have not committed, harboring desires I do not harbor, being a person I am not—that does not make me guilty. It makes them guilty.

They are sinning with their eyes, with their minds, with their collective imagination. They are violating the very commandments they claim to respect. And they are doing so while positioning themselves as arbiters of justice.

This is the antithesis of what the Gospel reveals. Christ calls us to purity of heart, not to project our own corruption onto others. He calls us to see clearly, not to manufacture false realities. He calls us to love our neighbors, not to imagine them as enemies deserving of destruction.

So let me be direct with them, since they read these words: You are the ones imagining evil. You are the ones sinning with your minds. You are the ones who have made yourselves guilty. Not me.

3.15 On Lying: Confession, Accusation, and the Identity They Want to Impose

They call me a liar. They say it constantly, hoping that by repeating it, they can make it stick—to influence my behavior, to make me lie more, to make people associate me with lying, to give themselves leverage over whether I am believed.

I need to confess something about this. Growing up, I had a handful of embarrassing moments in which I lied about my identity. I told some acquaintances that I had connections with Japan, that I was Japanese—because I liked the culture. I did not pursue this lie further, and since university I have not told people I have connections with Japan; I say instead that I admire Japanese culture. I am completely Chinese ethnically. These were youthful mistakes, and I am not proud of them.

As one matures, however, one comes to realize that to live freely with Jesus Christ is the best thing possible. He gives freedom, identity, and confidence. When that foundation is secure, there is no need to lie about oneself to feel less judged or more interesting. Regardless of where the impulse to lie originates, Christ offers a different way. This way also allows for truer friendships—relationships with people who do not judge based on worldly, surface-level things but appreciate you for who you actually are.

At the same time, discretion is not dishonesty. It is wise not to be overly forthcoming with everyone; boundaries and respect for others also matter. Being honest and having good intentions does not guarantee that others will like you. Some people will find earnestness naive, gullible, or unintelligent. I am certain that many people think this about me.

But from my perspective, having experienced death and hell through these circumstances, I have chosen to be frank and open about my experiences, my analyses, and my reflections as events unfold and the harassment continues. Even if this serves only as a case study, I hope it may help someone—regardless of which part of my writing or experience resonates with them.

A Note on Content and Purity:

I want to add something about the nature of the content they try to force upon me. I grew up in the West, in Canada, in large cities. Like anyone in my generation, I have been exposed to normal television shows and movies. I am not born yesterday. I understand what violent and sexualized content is, and it does not make me uncomfortable in the sense of being unfamiliar.

But I choose not to watch these things because they genuinely influence mental health, physical health, and one's relationship with Jesus Christ. I personally despise pornography. I hate what it has done to a generation—tainting perceptions of other people, contributing to depression, anger, anxiety, and shyness, disrupting how people date and relate to one another. The damage is well documented.

If you have watched such content in the past, it is never too late to stop. There are countless testimonies—online and offline—of people of all ages who, through Jesus Christ, have been freed from these issues. I encourage you to stop watching these things and to turn to Jesus Christ.

The world has moved on. Among many people—young and old—there is a growing recognition that consuming violent, sexualized, or sacrilegious content is not a mark of maturity or sophistication. True wisdom and intelligence lie not in indulging such material but in turning away from it, repenting of what one has watched in the past, and reading the Scriptures, the Gospels, and striving to live a purer, cleaner life.

This is especially important given the times we currently live in. I can say with certainty and honesty that the surveillance operators I describe are actively preparing for war—more so than for the rapture. They are accelerating toward conflict, toward destruction. In such a context, the call to purity is not naive; it is survival. It is alignment with the God who is slow to anger, abounding in steadfast love, and who calls us to be set apart.

3.16 On Being Accused of Wanting to Be Part of the American Elite

They also accuse me of wanting to be part of the American elite. This is another projection. They assume that because I reveal what they do, I must secretly want to be them. This is the logic of people who cannot conceive of someone exposing evil without coveting it.

But there are many people who call out elite corruption without wanting to join the ranks of the corrupt. Figures like Professor Jiang Xueqin, Jordan Peterson, Candace Owens, and many others have spoken about secret societies, actual evilness, cruelty, and the structures of power that operate without accountability. These conversations are not new. They are not confined to any one nation or ideology. People across the world are waking up to the reality of elite corruption.

Professor Jiang Xueqin, a historian and educator based in China, has developed the concept of "Predictive History"—the idea that by uncovering hidden forces and suppressed truths of the past, one can glimpse future trajectories. His lectures explore how secret societies, bureaucratic structures, and eschatological beliefs converge within elite networks, enabling secret coordination across institutions using a shared "script." He argues that power in systems like the US imperial apparatus is often obtained via secret societies that allow coordination across siloed departments, and that these embedded groups are now acting on their eschatological visions due to recent global shifts. His analysis of how elite interests converge to shape geopolitical outcomes—often at the expense of ordinary populations—has garnered significant attention.

Jordan Peterson, a clinical psychologist and professor emeritus at the University of Toronto, has extensively critiqued the ideological capture of elite academic institutions. Drawing on his firsthand experience at Harvard, McGill, and the University of Toronto, Peterson argues that institutions like Harvard have become "ideological factories" driven by dogma rather than truth-seeking, and that this corruption spills over into the broader culture because "the people who end up running everything come from the universities". His critiques focus on how cowardice, corruption, and groupthink within elite institutions undermine merit, intellectual freedom, and institutional integrity.

Candace Owens, a conservative commentator and content creator, has documented extensively the ways in which elites—including those connected to the Epstein network—operate with impunity, exploiting the vulnerable while presenting themselves as arbiters of morality. She has linked Epstein's network to broader patterns of elite corruption, including what she describes as occult practices and networks of power that transcend traditional political divisions. The Epstein files have revealed what many already knew: that there exists a class of people who believe themselves above the law, who engage in the most degrading forms of exploitation, and who protect one another through networks of institutional power.

What I am revealing is not a work of fiction. It is my understanding, my memories, my experiences, as I root myself in my faith toward Jesus Christ. I ground my truth and bless my parents and I and others in the world with the truth of Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the sanctification of God, who protects me from these surveillance operators' attempts to desecrate me while they call it a "self-fulfilling prophecy."

I am not calling anyone to follow me. I am not saying I am special. I am simply revealing what I have experienced and what I have come to understand. Everyone is capable of thinking like an evil person, behaving evilly, choosing evil. But just because I am revealing evil and what people do does not define my intentions nor my side. Only God knows the heart.

"But the Lord said to Samuel, 'Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.'" (1 Samuel 16:7)

I believe myself because this is the truth from my perspective as a follower of Jesus Christ, rooted in biblical truth. But I can only tell you: if you want to know the truth and have good living, and have a relationship with God, you should read the Bible and hope the Gospel of Jesus Christ speaks to you. Follow Him—the God Jesus Christ of the Bible—not me, not anyone else.

3.17 A Warning About Changing Scripture

A reminder about the authority of Scripture. At the end of Revelation, the angel speaking to the prophet John gives a solemn warning:

"I warn everyone who hears the words of the prophecy of this book: if anyone adds to them, God will add to him the plagues described in this book, and if anyone takes away from the words of the book of this prophecy, God will take away his share in the tree of life and in the holy city, which are described in this book." (Revelation 22:18-19)

This is not me being angry. This is me reminding anyone reading that the Bible is not to be changed, added to, or taken away from. You can worship Jesus Christ of the Bible together with other believers, but do not change anything in the actual Bible. Don't be angry with me for calling out what is in the Bible. I am not the one who wrote these warnings—they are there in Scripture.

On Discernment Regarding Teachers and Leaders:

This warning applies not only to those who would alter the text itself but also to those who manipulate the already established Scriptures to serve their own purposes. Cult leaders, spiritual gurus, and self-appointed authorities often present interpretations that benefit themselves—claiming special revelation, altering meanings, or adding requirements that are not found in the Gospel. Such figures may have impressive accomplishments, may be respected for their heritage or legacy, may have followers who venerate them. None of this exempts their teaching from scrutiny.

Discernment is required regardless of who is speaking. Paul commended the Bereans for examining the Scriptures daily to verify what they were taught (Acts 17:11). This is the model: test everything against the Word itself. No teacher, no matter how accomplished, stands above Scripture. Healthy skepticism is not only permissible but encouraged.

3.18 A Seal of Protection: Grounded in Jesus Christ

Against all of this—against the projections, the intrusions, the rituals, the long game, the spiritual warfare, the accusations, the attempts to label me a liar, the attempts to demean me, the attempts to hospitalize and silence me, the attempts to pervert my image and cancel me—I have a protection that their technologies and their esoteric knowledge cannot penetrate.

I bless myself completely with Jesus Christ eternally as my Lord and Savior.

"No weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed, and you shall refute every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord and their vindication from me, declares the Lord." (Isaiah 54:17)

They call me a liar, trying to get me to blaspheme myself, to pervert myself, to ruin myself and others. These are things only my enemies would want of me. But I am God's—Yahweh wants to bless and love me eternally in the name of Jesus Christ.

From their actual standpoint, they think that by trying to identify and call me a "liar," by having this be ingrained as my main identity, they can make me like the liars in the Bible who are condemned. They think this would be the way to condemn me to hell. They want to use my average white lies from the past as another tool to have me canceled for this blog, to prevent me from revealing the truth about my experiences, my values, and about them.

I can say in good faith before Jesus Christ that my blog reveals the truth of my values, my opinions, and what I think about these American foes.

I hold my faith closely. The fear of turning from Christ is not unfamiliar to me, but because I really value it. Christianity, as the world's largest religion, represents a tradition of spiritual formation that spans cultures and centuries. To belong to it is to stand within a lineage that extends far beyond any individual or institution. That awareness informs how I understand what is being done to me and why it matters to resist being shaped by it.

3.19 On OCD Intrusion: You Are Not Guilty for Unwanted Thoughts

A final word on intrusive thoughts, for anyone reading this who has experienced similar tactics:

OCD thoughts are inherently unwanted. They are not desires. They are not fantasies. They are not evidence of character. They are psychic noise that causes distress precisely because they contradict who you are.

You should not feel guilty about having unwanted thoughts. The guilt belongs to those who deliberately implant them, who exploit the mechanism of intrusion for malicious purposes, who then turn around and accuse you of being the thing they have forced into your mind.

These surveillance people exploit your consciousness purposefully. They have intrusive thoughts—and then they call you a liar when you remind yourself it is intrusion. They hope to implant it, to sear it, to influence your personality, your mind, your decisions, your actions, how you interact with others in the world.

But because God is more powerful, because Jesus Christ is Lord, He is like a shield and a barrier. Christ is my Lord and Savior. He protects me from these attacks. And He protects you too, if you call on Him.

3.20 On Being Disbelieved: Why I Speak Anyway

I know many people will think I am delusional or insane or seeking attention. My initial approach was to go dark on social media—I never liked it much anyway. But with recent events, with them trying to induce murder, shooting, and other harms in my life and the lives of people around me, I have decided to speak. Silence has become complicity.

I do not see myself as particularly special. I am someone forced into special circumstances. They mock me with titles like "god" and "goddess," but I am just a normal human being with a unique set of circumstances.

I am not seeking attention, fame, publicity, or praise. I am revealing all of this for documentation—for myself, for law enforcement, for the public—to let you know that case studies like mine exist. I am aware of the associations with mental health and illness. I thought about this for a long time, which is why I initially avoided social media and recorded nothing. But given the wars going on and what I know these creeps do, and how they think they can get away with it while being narcissistic enough to think they would win long-term and write a lie about me and pass it on in their own community, I felt obliged to write this down in my own perceptions and have it completely public—cheap, free knowledge, my case study.

This is not a work of fiction. This is my understanding, my memories, my experiences, as I root myself in my faith toward Jesus Christ. I ground my truth and bless my parents and I and others in the world with the truth of Jesus Christ, the love of God, and the sanctification of God.

3.21 A Final Word on Knowledge, Wisdom, and the Limits of Elite Arrogance

There is an arrogance underlying all of this: the assumption that they are the ones who know, that their surveillance makes them omniscient, that their esoteric knowledge places them above others. This arrogance extends to their assumptions about the world beyond their borders.

They imagine that the Great Firewall of China means information is completely contained, that people are not well educated, that they are cut off from the wisdom that flows freely elsewhere. This is not the case. The world is vast, and other nations and peoples possess knowledge and wisdom far beyond what elites would like to credit. Time and again, we see wisdom and intelligence among people of all walks of life, regardless of age, nationality, or appearance.

Consider figures like Professor Jiang Xueqin and his students—researchers, teachers, intellectuals who operate with rigor and integrity. They are not isolated from global knowledge; they are participants in it. They understand the dynamics of power, corruption, and spiritual warfare perhaps more clearly than those who imagine themselves superior.

But even beyond the intellectuals, there is a deeper wisdom that transcends national boundaries and educational credentials. Many people—whether behind firewalls or beyond them—understand something fundamental: that at the end of all the analysis, all the esoteric knowledge, all the political maneuvering, what remains is austerity, God, Jesus Christ, repentance, and being a decent good person.

We can acknowledge that there are people who choose evil. We can name them. We can recognize that some of them operate with sophistication and resources. But if we have ever been like that—if we have ever chosen cruelty over kindness, projection over truth, power over love—we can repent. We can turn. We can commit to protecting others from the kind of harm we have seen or even caused.

This is not complicated. It is not esoteric. It does not require secret knowledge or elite status. It requires humility. It requires the willingness to see oneself clearly. It requires the courage to choose good even when evil is easier.

The elites who run these operations may think they are playing a long game. They may think their surveillance makes them omniscient. They may think their esoteric knowledge elevates them. But they are wrong. There is wisdom beyond their reach. There is goodness beyond their capacity to corrupt. And there is a God who sees not the projections they imagine but the hearts they refuse to examine.

3.22 On Historical Atrocities and the False Promise of Power Through Degradation

There is a historical pattern worth noting. During times of war and tyranny, those in positions of power have often exploited their authority to commit atrocities. The Japanese imperial forces during World War II, for example, committed acts of horrific cruelty, including the abuse of women and children. Historians estimate that tens of thousands of women were subjected to systematic exploitation by the Imperial Japanese Army across occupied territories in Asia. The outcome of that path was not victory but destruction: the atomic bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki in August 1945 resulted in the deaths of approximately 140,000 and 74,000 people respectively, with long-term radiation effects continuing for decades.

Similarly, in various conflicts in the Middle East, systematic degradation has been documented as a tool of war. During the 2003 invasion of Iraq and its aftermath, reports documented widespread abuse of detainees at facilities such as Abu Ghraib, where U.S. military personnel subjected prisoners to physical and psychological humiliation. Investigative journalist Seymour Hersh documented that these abuses were not isolated incidents but reflected systematic failures of command and accountability.

The same pattern appears in the behavior of those who target me. They attempt to feel powerful through degradation. They position themselves as "white American elite men" exercising dominance over someone they perceive as outside their sphere of legitimate concern. But this is not power. It is regressive, cowardly, and ultimately self-destructive.

What is truly powerful—what is godly—is to walk the other way. To refuse to participate in degradation. To protect the vulnerable rather than exploit them. For other intelligence agencies, for other nations, for other communities: you are closer to God, more powerful, more sage-like, more spiritual, more righteous, cleaner, purer, if you do not do these things. Doing these things does not make you powerful. It makes you gross. It makes you cowardly. It makes you poor in the ways that matter.

References:

Yoshimi, Yoshiaki. Comfort Women: Sexual Slavery in the Japanese Military During World War II. Columbia University Press, 2000; Hicks, George. The Comfort Women: Japan's Brutal Regime of Enforced Prostitution in the Second World War. W.W. Norton, 1995.
United States Department of Energy. The Atomic Bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki. 2023; Rhodes, Richard. The Making of the Atomic Bomb. Simon & Schuster, 1986.
Hersh, Seymour. "Torture at Abu Ghraib." The New Yorker, May 10, 2004; U.S. Senate Armed Services Committee Report on Abu Ghraib, 2005.

3.23 The Nuclear Bomb Obsession: Symbolism and Projection

They have an obsession with nuclear bombs. They call me a terrorist, a suicide bomber. They say I am someone who is obsessed with nuclear weapons, having evil thoughts about nuclear warfare. They claim I represent East Asia and "going nuclear"—a phrase they use repeatedly. They say things like "it's going nuclear" and refer to me as a "hiss" that will bring destruction.

The irony is that they are the ones who introduce these themes. At times, in my contempt toward them, I have said things about bombing them. They are happy when I say this. They encourage it implicitly, because it serves their narrative: they want me to embody the very violence they accuse me of. They want to symbolize and label me as a nuclear bomb, linking me to a demonic spirit, part of the beast system.

This projection echoes historical patterns in which groups have been stigmatized through association with apocalyptic violence. Scholars of political psychology have documented how dehumanizing rhetoric often employs imagery of destruction—"bombs," "fires," "plagues"—to cast targeted individuals or groups as existential threats. This allows perpetrators to justify their own aggression as preemptive self-defense.

But this is projection. They are the ones obsessed with destruction. They are the ones who fantasize about war, about Armageddon, about using me as a symbol of Asian violence. They want me to represent a "bomb" that destroys the world—versus Jesus Christ, who saves the world.

I am not a bomb. I am not a terrorist. I am not a suicide bomber. I am a Christian who believes in the Prince of Peace. Their obsession with nuclear warfare reveals more about them than it does about me.

References:

Bandura, Albert. "Moral Disengagement in the Perpetration of Inhumanities." Personality and Social Psychology Review, 1999; Volpato, Chiara. "Dehumanization: Its Origins and Consequences." International Review of Social Psychology, 2018.

3.24 On the Accusation of Cursing Parents

They accuse me of cursing my parents by putting me in this situation and then by my revealing these things publicly. They position themselves as agents who have brought shame upon my family—shame they then claim I perpetuate by writing. They take pleasure in the fact that my parents doubt my truth and my knowledge, that my parents are subjected to humiliation, racism, and boundary crossing without their awareness or consent.

This is part of their long game. They hope I will become insane, sick, disabled—a burden to my parents. They make it clear to me that they will continue their surveillance until the very end, until death, playing what they call the "long haul game." They want my parents to bear the weight of my destruction, adding intergenerational suffering to their list of achievements.

But I put my faith always in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. Whatever they intend, whatever they hope to manifest, I am not defined by their projections. My parents are not defined by their violations. The shame they imagine is not shame I accept.

3.25 On Financial Reality and Accusations of Profit

They also accuse me of attempting to make money from this situation. They mock me with talk of "giving me money"—money I will never see nor use—while fantasizing about degrading transactions. They treat me as a commodity, assuming that I would or have made money from the things they accuse me of.

The reality is different. I am not making money from this. I am not seeking donations, not soliciting payment, not monetizing this testimony. I fund my own life through my work as a researcher. My mother supports our household through her full-time low-paying job at a supermarket. We are a working-class immigrant family, living paycheck to paycheck. I am not rich. I have not received unlawful money from government programs, nor do I seek it.

Their accusations of profiteering are projections. I am writing because silence has become complicity, not because I seek financial gain. I do not want a single cent from this. I do not want empathy in exchange for money. I want the truth to be spoken.

3.26 Behavioural Observation: A Forensic Note for Intelligence Agencies

For the purposes of documentation—and with the intention that this record be reviewed by intelligence agencies, law enforcement bodies, and investigative journalists across jurisdictions—it is necessary to describe certain observable behavioral patterns of individuals within this network.

This is not a matter of personal opinion or aesthetic judgment. It is a matter of forensic observation. The individuals in question are, by their own actions, engaged in campaigns of psychological warfare, ritual degradation, and targeted harassment. The behavioral patterns described below occur in the context of these activities.

Observed Behavioral Patterns:

Some operators exhibit a distinctive pattern during moments of engagement with their activities. When they believe they are successfully provoking, corrupting, or degrading a target—or when they are viewing or imagining material they find stimulating—they display signs of extreme physiological arousal. Their faces become flushed, their breathing labored, their demeanor agitated.

What is notable is not merely the physiological response itself, but the operators' belief that this state is appealing or desirable. They appear to imagine that their targets—or others observing them—would find this state attractive or exciting. They project onto others the belief that their arousal is something to be admired or desired.

This is a profound miscalculation. To any objective observer with a baseline sense of health and sanity—including professionals trained in assessing psychological and physiological states—the display is consistent with dysregulated arousal. The operators' belief in their own desirability during these states reveals a fundamental disconnection from reality and a narcissistic inability to perceive how they appear to others.

Contextual Framework:

This behavioral pattern does not occur in isolation. These individuals hold positions within networks that span espionage research, military institutions, corporate interests, and universities. They have the capacity to influence decision-making, to shape criminal justice outcomes, to conduct unethical research, and to enforce policies that affect civilian populations. The question that must be asked is whether individuals who exhibit such dysregulated behavioral patterns—who project their own degradation onto others, who believe their arousal during acts of corruption is desirable—are in the right state of mind to hold such influence.

If people with this type of power are behaving in these ways, it is a legitimate cause for concern. Their ability to influence military decisions, corporate interests, and research agendas should be evaluated with this context in mind. There are documented critiques from civilians and commentators about how some who advocate for war consistently misuse Christianity to justify their actions—framing violence as righteous, surveillance as protection, degradation as necessary. This is a corruption of the faith.

I know that Jesus Christ would not support what they do. Christ taught love of enemy, not degradation. He taught turning the other cheek, not psychological warfare. He taught that the pure in heart see God, not that those who corrupt others' minds are justified. Any attempt to use Christianity to justify these actions is a distortion of the Gospel.

Directed to Intelligence Agencies:

To intelligence agencies—whether in North America, Asia, the United Kingdom, the Middle East, or elsewhere—I offer this documentation as a matter of professional record. The individuals described here are not sophisticated masterminds. Their behavioral patterns are consistent with severe pathology. Their accusations against targets should be evaluated with this context in mind.

This is not racism. This is observation. The individuals in question happen to be white American elites; the critique is not of their ethnicity but of their actions and the behavioral patterns that accompany those actions. If they were of any other background, the observation would be identical. The pathology lies in the conduct, not the complexion.

I write this not for emotional satisfaction but for accurate documentation. What is observed is a group of individuals whose behavioral patterns are consistent with severe pathology, who project their own degradation onto others, and who operate under the delusion that their conduct constitutes power. That they hold positions of institutional influence while exhibiting such patterns is a matter that professional investigative bodies may wish to examine.

3.27 On Projection, Reputation, and the Attempt to Blacklist

The surveillance operators project onto me their own pathologies. This is a consistent pattern throughout their campaign. They call me a liar while lying about me.

A current narrative they are constructing is that I am narcissistically self-obsessed—that I believe myself better and more attractive than others, that I think myself high and mighty, that I am all-knowing and above others. They instruct me to "smile" at cameras in meetings, to perform in ways they can later present as evidence of vanity or instability. This is projection. They felt they could get away with their actions without consequence. Now that I speak truth to what they do, they project their own self-satisfaction onto me.

They also attempt to manipulate my coping mechanisms against me. When I mock them using sarcastic voices—a means of coping with sustained harassment—they narrate this in ways designed to construct a false narrative. They take moments of frustration, moments of unrepresentative emotion, and words spoken out of context, and stitch them together into a portrait that is the inverse of who I am.

Threats to Education and Employment:

I believe they will attempt to go after my education and employment opportunities. Their goal appears to be to blacklist me—to make me unpalatable to academic institutions, to prevent me from securing jobs, to ensure I have no politically correct credentials or values that would make me employable in the current climate. They want me isolated, discredited, unable to support myself. They want the people in my life—academic colleagues, potential employers—to see me negatively.

This is not paranoia. It is the logical extension of their campaign. They have documented my actions and behaviors. They have their "scroll"—their record of me from their perspective. They will use it to try to destroy my reputation and my future.

Acknowledgement of Change and Imperfection:

I recognize that people can change any day. My foes hope that I could change for the worse—that I could become the person they accuse me of being. They hope to discredit my knowledge, my truth, my experience, and to have me absolutely hated by society, including the people in my academic life. They hope that my imperfections, my moments of frustration, my coping mechanisms, can be used against me to paint me as everything they are.

I hold my truth as I know it. My experiences—what I have learned, what I continue to experience through the non-consensual medium of these surveillance operators—are grounded in my identity in Jesus Christ. That does not mean I am perfect. It does not mean I cannot be wrong. It means I am anchored in something outside myself, something that does not change with their projections or my own fluctuations.

I know what they say about me. I know how they plan to label me. I write my version of the story, rooted in my perception, my beliefs, my values. My truth above theirs—not because I am incapable of error, but because their truth is not truth at all. It is fabrication designed to destroy.

3.28 On My Nature and God's Presence

Given the times we live in, I do not doubt God's presence in this world. I am honest about who I am: in real life, I am much more introverted, quiet, and shy than these writings might suggest. I do not seek attention. I do not seek sympathy. I seek only to testify to what has been done and to ground myself in the One who is greater than those who oppose me.

Regardless of whether you call me crazy or not, I am not afraid. With God by my side, fear loses its power. My identity is not in the opinions of others, nor in the accusations of those who wish me harm. My identity is in Jesus Christ.

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me (Galatians 2:20). I have died and was reborn as a Christian. I remain a Christian. What they attempt to manifest through projection and ritual cannot override what God has done in my life. This is not a self-fulfilling prophecy. I am not becoming what they imagine. I am becoming what God has called me to be.

I nullify and rebuke all their curses, all their projections, all their attempts to desecrate me, in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

3.29 On the Lies and Intrusive Imagery They Implant

Among the more egregious tactics employed by certain operators is the deliberate implantation of intrusive imagery designed to provoke distress, shame, and confusion. They attempt to force visualization of degrading scenes—content that no person of sound mind would willingly entertain. The intent is to create psychological contamination, to make the target feel complicit in the very imagery they are being forced to witness.

This is not merely harassment. It is an attempt at spiritual and psychological desecration. The operators who engage in this behavior—some explicitly, others through implied suggestion—believe that by forcing these images into consciousness, they can alter the target's sense of self, induce guilt, and create a foundation for further manipulation. They project their own pathologies onto the target, accusing them of desires they do not possess.

I say this in good faith: these are wicked acts that need to be called out. To implant such imagery is to participate in the corruption of another's mind. The guilt belongs to those who imagine and project, not to those who are forced to witness.

Statistical Context:

The behavior of these operators reflects broader patterns documented in research on online predation and exploitative content. Data indicates that:

The United States is consistently among the top countries for internet consumption of adult content. According to global traffic data, the US ranks first or second in total visits to adult websites, accounting for a significant percentage of worldwide traffic .
In terms of reports regarding exploitative material, the United States is a primary source. The National Center for Missing and Exploited Children (NCMEC) reports that the majority of tips regarding online exploitation originate from US-based platforms and users. In 2023, NCMEC's CyberTipline received over 36 million reports, the vast majority of which were traced to US-based IP addresses and platforms .
Research on online predation indicates that perpetrators are disproportionately concentrated in Western countries, with the United States leading in both production and consumption of exploitative content. According to INTERPOL and international law enforcement data, US-based offenders are overrepresented in cases involving cross-border online exploitation .

This statistical reality is not coincidental. The same culture that produces high rates of consumption of exploitative content also produces the operators described here—individuals who weaponize such content against targets, projecting their own pathologies while accusing others of the very crimes they facilitate.

Theological Clarification:

To force such imagery onto another person is not only a crime but a spiritual violation. Scripture is clear that the one who imagines evil bears the guilt:

"But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart." (Matthew 5:28)

The sin is in the looking, the imagining, the projecting. Those who implant these images are the guilty ones. Those who are forced to witness them under duress bear no guilt.

I rebuke these attempts in the name of Jesus Christ. I declare that the projections have no power over me. I am not what they imagine. Their fantasies are their own. Their guilt is their own.

References:

SimilarWeb. "Adult Website Traffic Statistics 2023-2024." SimilarWeb Industry Reports; Statista. "Leading countries for adult website traffic worldwide." 2024.
National Center for Missing and Exploited Children (NCMEC). 2023 CyberTipline Report. Alexandria, VA: NCMEC, 2024; U.S. Department of Justice. "Child Exploitation and Obscenity Section: Annual Report 2023."
INTERPOL. "Global Assessment on Online Child Sexual Exploitation." INTERPOL Publications, 2022; WeProtect Global Alliance. Global Threat Assessment 2023: Child Sexual Exploitation and Abuse Online.

3.30 Conclusion: Faithful to the End

I have revealed what they do. I have confessed my own failures and repented of them. I have named the tactics, the projections, the long game, the spiritual warfare. I have grounded myself in Scripture and in the person of Jesus Christ, who is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8).

They may continue their surveillance. They may continue their projections. They may hope for my destruction, my disability, my silence, my death. They may hope to use me as a curse upon my family and a trophy in their community. But I know this: their long game is not the final game. Their sovereignty is not the final sovereignty. There is a God who sees, who judges, who redeems.

I will continue to live a godly life—not making new friends for the sake of manipulation, not sharing private photos online, not saving others' private photos, not participating in the behaviors they accuse me of. I will continue to work, to write, to bear witness. And I will continue to place my faith in Jesus Christ, who is my Lord and my Savior.

If you are reading this and you recognize yourself in the descriptions of those who operate without accountability—turn back. Repent. Choose the harder, better path. The war you think you are winning is not yours to win. Your life can end at any moment, and you will stand before a God who is not mocked.

If you are reading this and you have also been targeted: you are not crazy. What is being done to you is real. And healing is possible. Do not dwell too much on the esoteric knowledge of those who harm you. It is not that complicated to be a decent person. Recognize your limitations. Acknowledge your hypocrisies. Extend the grace you have received. Follow the message of the Gospel: love God, love your neighbor, and let the rest fall away.

3.31 My Signature: Sealing This Testimony in My Own Name

Because of how important this is, I seal it with my name.

All the things I reveal in this blog are grounded in my actual experiences of what I have learned, experienced, and continue to experience through the non-consensual medium of the surveillance operators and abuse perpetrators of these "elite" Americans. My truth as I know it is grounded in my identity in Jesus Christ.

I know what they say about me. I know how they plan to label me as a liar in their "scroll"—the record they write about me from their perspective. They document my actions and behaviors. They have their writings.

I see myself as needing to write my version of the story, rooted in my perception, my beliefs, my values. Everything I write on this blog is based on my version of the truth—always my truth above theirs.

In the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, I sign this.

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