On False Accusations of Racism and Bigotry
The surveillance operators have a new tactic: they try to paint me as a neo-Nazi, a white supremacist, a racist, an antisemite. They use language from the worst corners of the internet, slurs against Jewish people, African Americans, Chinese, hateful rhetoric directed at various ethnic groups. They project these identities onto me as if reading from a script written on 4chan.
Who I Actually Am
I grew up in a diverse, working-class neighbourhood. My friends growing up were Catholic, agnostic, Buddhist, Muslim, Black, Chinese, Jewish, Russian, immigrant families from all over. This seems irrelevant and ridiculous to add, but I have had crushes on Korean men, Jewish men, Middle Eastern men, Romanian men. These are facts of my life.
I am not a Nazi. I do not stand with white supremacy. I do not harbour antisemitism. I find racism in all its forms to be a violation of everything I believe.
My parents are not oppressors. They are not "racist." My mother, my father, and I are not "self-hating", an idea the surveillance operators tried to plant in my mind. We are Chinese immigrants who built a life in Canada. We have no interest in the racial hierarchies that the operators try to project onto me.
What the Operators Are Doing
The operators occasionally bombard me with white supremacist rhetoric. They call me slurs. They try to make me say things I do not believe. They hope that by flooding my mind with this filth, they can provoke a reaction, something they can record, something they can use as evidence that I am what they say I am.
This is a classic abuser tactic: project your own evil onto your victim, then accuse them of being the evil one.
But here is the contradiction: many of these operators are not white supremacists. Many are politically left-leaning, elite Democrats, corporate liberals, people who would publicly condemn racism. They may genuinely believe they are against racism toward African Americans. They may carry guilt about systemic oppression. And yet, toward me, they act as oppressors. They call me racial slurs. They accuse me of being a Nazi. They treat me as disposable.
Their politics do not excuse their behaviour. Their left-leaning identity does not make their actions less racist. It makes them hypocrites.
They want me to appease them. They want me to justify why I have not done more to call them out. They want me to feel guilty for exposing them. And when I do not comply, they accuse me of being the very thing they claim to oppose.
Acknowledging My Own Responses
I will be honest: in moments of immense fury, I have said things back. I have said extremely crude terms and name-calling towards them, along with visualize really violent imagery of them , referencing to historical wrongs their ancestors have committed against other communities, societies, and nations.
(NOTE: they do this to me and people I love too, and started this first, by freaking me out with the visuals they see on their side, along with certain sensory sensations and smells and sound effects, and even project some of these gross imageries to me, hoping I would be traumatized, and implicitly encouraging that I would in turn create more of these deviant thoughts and images and videos in my mind space, which they record and some enjoy, hoping that I would become more cruel with the imagery and the anger and name calling, making me behave demonically versus Christ-like)
Although much of my criticisms may be accurate, I am not proud of this, as it is only brewing more hate and contempt on both sides. These are not things I believe about them as a group of people as a whole. They are things I have said in anger to people who have been terrorizing me for years.
I do not think this justifies their accusations. I do not think my anger makes me what they say I am. But I also do not want to pretend I have been silent or above retaliation. I have been pushed to the edge of my sanity, and sometimes I have lashed out.
This is not the same as being a white supremacist or a neo-Nazi. I am not targeting people based on their race. I am responding to specific people who have made my life a nightmare. There is a difference between systemic racism and the ugly things a tormented person says in fury.
I am not proud of it. But I am not going to pretend it did not happen. Their accusations are still lies. My anger does not make them true.
What I Actually Believe
I believe that people and nations have become more powerful over generations due to many external factors, not because of any inherent racial superiority. Good governance matters. Access to technology matters. Historical opportunities matter. Even geography and climate matter.
There is research suggesting that colder climates, with their distinct seasons and harsher conditions, historically forced populations to develop more sophisticated systems of storage, planning, and resource management. Warmer climates, while offering their own advantages, presented different challenges, disease prevalence, agricultural patterns, and different forms of social organization. These environmental factors shaped development trajectories over centuries. None of this has anything to do with the inherent worth or capability of any group of people.
The concept of the "Mandate of Heaven" in Chinese tradition reflects a similar understanding: political legitimacy comes not from bloodline or race but from just and capable governance. A ruler who governed well received Heaven's mandate; a ruler who governed poorly lost it. This is fundamentally about virtue and competence, not ethnicity.
What is true is that certain groups have taken advantage of their geographic and historical circumstances, and then used their power to exploit others. They constructed racial hierarchies to justify their exploitation. They developed ideologies that placed themselves at the top and others beneath them. This is not evidence of superiority. It is evidence of opportunism and cruelty.
On the History of Racism
Racism as we understand it today is not ancient. The ancient Greeks, for example, had concepts of environmental determinism, Hippocrates wrote that climate shaped character and temperament, but they did not have the systematized racial hierarchy that emerged later. What we call racism today developed over centuries, particularly through the transatlantic slave trade, colonialism, and the pseudoscience of the 18th and 19th centuries.
The ancient world was, in many ways, less rigidly racist than our own. There was ethnic prejudice, yes. But the idea that a person's race determined their worth, their intelligence, their capacity for civilization, this is a relatively modern invention, constructed to justify slavery, colonization, and genocide.
It is a sobering fact that in some respects, the world today is more racist than the ancient world, not because people were kinder then, but because the ideologies of racial hierarchy had not yet been fully developed and weaponized. The systems of oppression we live with today were built over centuries, refined by pseudoscience, enforced by violence, and embedded into the structures of modern nations.
I believe that people should be judged by their character, not by their race. I believe that systemic racism exists and must be addressed. I believe that historically oppressed people deserve equity, dignity, and justice. I believe that the world is becoming less racist in some ways, but that progress is fragile, and the old ideologies keep returning in new forms.
I do not believe in racial hierarchy. I do not believe that any race is superior to another. I do not believe in the hateful ideologies that the operators try to attach to me.
I am not what they say I am. Their accusations tell me more about them than they tell anyone about me. And my moments of anger, however ugly, do not make their lies true.
References & Notes
On Projection
Projection is a defense mechanism where individuals attribute their own unacceptable thoughts, feelings, or impulses to another person (Freud, 1896; Vaillant, 1992; Ego Mechanisms of Defense). The operators accuse me of racism and bigotry because they, or the systems they represent, are the ones who have historically upheld these ideologies. Even when they identify as politically left-leaning, their actions toward me reveal a different reality.
On Climate and Development
Research on the relationship between climate, geography, and economic development suggests that environmental factors have shaped development trajectories across civilizations. Harsher climates with distinct seasons historically required more complex systems of food storage, planning, and resource management, while warmer climates presented different challenges including disease prevalence and agricultural patterns. However, these environmental factors are distinct from any claim about inherent group characteristics (Diamond, 1997; Guns, Germs, and Steel).
On the Mandate of Heaven
The Mandate of Heaven (Tianming) was a Chinese political doctrine used to justify the rule of emperors. It held that Heaven (Tian) granted the right to rule based on the ruler's virtue and competence. A ruler who governed justly maintained the mandate; a ruler who governed poorly lost it. Natural disasters, famine, and other calamities were often interpreted as signs that the mandate had been withdrawn. This concept emphasized governance and moral character over heredity or race.
On the History of Racism
The ancient world did not have the same concepts of racial hierarchy that emerged in the modern era. Ancient Greek writers like Hippocrates discussed environmental determinism, the idea that climate shaped character, but did not develop the systemized racial ideologies that came later. Modern racism as we know it developed over centuries, particularly through the transatlantic slave trade, colonialism, and 18th-19th century pseudoscience. Francisco Bethencourt's Racisms: From the Crusades to the Twentieth Century traces this history, showing how racism was constructed and weaponized over time. In some respects, contemporary racism is more systemized and globalized than ancient forms of ethnic prejudice.
On Systemic Racism
Systemic racism refers to the structures, policies, and practices that create and maintain racial inequality. The United States has a long history of systemic racism, from slavery and Jim Crow to redlining, mass incarceration, and ongoing disparities in wealth, health, and education (Alexander, 2010; The New Jim Crow; Rothstein, 2017; The Color of Law).
On Hypocrisy and Accountability
Being politically left-leaning does not exempt anyone from accountability for racist behaviour. Performative opposition to racism does not erase actual harm done to individuals. The operators' self-perception as "good" or "anti-racist" does not change what they do.
On Anger and Sin
Ephesians 4:26-27 "Be angry, and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and do not give the devil an opportunity."
James 1:19-20 "Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God."
Psalm 4:4 "Be angry, and do not sin; ponder in your own hearts on your beds, and be silent."
On Character Over Race
1 Samuel 16:7 "Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees, for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
Galatians 3:28 "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free, there is neither male nor female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus."
Acts 10:34-35 "I most certainly understand now that God is not one to show partiality, but in every nation the one who fears Him and does what is right is acceptable to Him."
Colossians 3:11 "Where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcised nor uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave nor free, but Christ is all, and in all."
Proverbs 22:2 "The rich and the poor have a common bond, the Lord is the maker of them all."
Matthew 7:1–5 On hypocrisy: "Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?"
Romans 2:1 "Therefore you have no excuse, everyone of you who passes judgment, for in that which you judge another, you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things."
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