March 21, Part 4: A Concrete Example of What I Endure: Sensory Harassment and Device Manipulation
To give you a concrete example of how much patience and endurance this takes: even someone who is not especially sensory sensitive might become irritated by certain sounds, continuous lip smacking, for instance, or by harsh lighting. The operators sometimes often generate gross lip-smacking sounds emanating from everywhere, including from other people in my life, hoping I will lash out or attack others, hoping I will make a bad impression or do something brash, or "snap".
They
do this on my devices as well. In recent days, during online meetings
on Zoom, they have made my camera go dark and creepy, made my laptop lag
so severely that I had to end meetings early, or restart meetings.
Perhaps they are trying to foreshadow, to imply that I they would make
me become suddenly "out of control", or make bad impressions with
others, to make others doubt my blog and my experiences and encounters.
Documenting the Evidence
Finally,
I am taking more screen recordings on my smartphone, in order to gather
the concrete, observable evidence of their bugging and surveillance in
my life. These recordings actually show the artifacts, the bugs, the
colour changes and glitches they have been producing so often in the
past when I'm on my smartphone. For instance, when I open Spotify, my
profile photo glitches to display the number "3", which they have made
clear references the Holy Trinity, given my faith in Jesus Christ. Other
colours appear depending on my mood: when I am upset, thinking
violently or antagonistically toward them, the glitches shift
accordingly.
Even as I write this, it sounds so delusional. But
knowing the full context of these insider "jokes" and meanings, I know
what I am talking about. I also know that others will find this strange,
laughable, or dubious. Completely fair and understandable (I would even
judge you if you didn't think these things, given how ridiculous and
immature these ramblings seem like), but to be fair, at least I am
making an honest attempt to explain the complicated and relevant parts
of my harassment and experiences.
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