A Confession About the Lies the Surveillance Operators Tell: Perversion, Isolation, and War Accusations (March 21, 2026)

  Trigger Warning: This post describes psychological abuse, harassment tactics, and references to disturbing themes. I am writing this to document what I have endured, not to sensationalize. Please take care of yourself as you read.

I am writing this as a confession, not because I have done anything wrong nor because I want to do anything wrong, but because the surveillance operators have been trying for years to make me believe I am like them. They have been trying to make me feel guilty, creepy, and perverse for simply living my life with grace, normalcy, and a healthy attitude.

This is one of the most unnecessary and gross aspects of what they do.

How They Try to Isolate You

The surveillance operators try to isolate you, or at least make you feel mentally isolated. They whisper lies, accuse you of wickedness, make you hear the vilest and most belittling names, trying to convince you that you are keeping some dark secret. They accuse you of being complicit in things that have never happened in your life, the crimes they commit, things you have never done, things you have never even thought about prior to their blatant accusations. They imply you are hiding something unspeakable, trying to make you feel guilty by association, trying to make you believe that simply knowing about their existence makes you complicit.

This is a grooming tactic. It is designed to isolate you, to make you feel like you cannot tell anyone, to make you feel like you are somehow part of the darkness simply because you have been exposed to it. They hope you will break. They hope you will become violent. They hope you will become what they are.

I refuse.

The Perversion of the Sacred

One of the most unnecessary lies they tell involves a perversion of something sacred to my Faith: the Eucharist.

In the Bible, at the Last Supper, Jesus Christ took bread and wine and gave it to His disciples, saying: "This is my body, given for you... This cup is the new covenant in my blood." (Luke 22:19-20) This is a sacred mystery, a symbol of love, sacrifice, and communion with God.

These individuals have twisted this. They have taken something holy and tried to corrupt it, using their technology to project degrading associations onto the simple act of eating. They try to make me associate normal food, sustenance, something good and necessary for life, with shame, filth, and eating disorders. They produce offensive smells and sounds to create disgust around something as basic as a meal.

If I continue eating despite their harassment, they accuse me of gluttony. They body shame me constantly, hoping I will become unhealthy, hoping I will become disabled, imagining me this way while insulting my intelligence.

Imagine this: you are simply sitting down to eat normal human food. You have done nothing wrong. You are not bothering anyone. And from their perspective, they act as if you are allowing these disgusting associations to be imposed on you. As if you are complicit. As if you want it. They are also implying they actually do these gross things to you or imagine you doing gross things, while you are having a normal, decent meal.

I do not. I never have. I never will.

What They Project, and What I Actually Am

They also have this bizarre obsession with accusing me of being like an "angel" because I am able to see the truth and call out their lies. And then, in the same breath, they project the most vile things onto me. They imagine me doing things I have never done. They accuse me of being something I am not. They also make it known that at this point, for many of them, they have made it a "game" to try to corrupt me, to get me to "switch", as I previously discussed in my March 21 Part 1-9 posts, hoping for a day when I start doing perverse, stupid, and sick things for them to record and make fun of, to amp up the occult and satanic rituals.

It sounds delusional, but it is not. Again, as I mention, when you know there are projects from the past like Project Monarch and Project MK-Ultra, and these are some of the people that I am calling out, the pattern becomes clear.

They have a twisted belief that because I will not become what they want me to become, because I will not break, because I will not become violent, because I will not become perverse, that somehow makes me a target for their contempt.

All I know is that God heals me from these wicked attempts to pervert and taint my perception. These people actively try to give me mental illness. They try to make me interpret the world in unhealthy ways. They do the opposite of Cognitive Behavioral Therapy; instead of healing trauma and renewing healthy thinking, they try to implant destructive patterns, to break down mental health rather than restore it.

The Cruelty of Watching Normal Life

What is truly disturbing is that they seem to derive satisfaction just from watching me do normal things. Sitting. Walking. Eating. Living. Their technology allows them to intrude into my space and impose themselves on my perception without my consent. They project themselves into my environment and seem to take pleasure in my distress.

And it is not just me.

Imagine a normal scene: children enjoying time with their friends, having something simple like hot chocolate, laughing, being kids. And imagine someone lurking, smirking, projecting their own darkness onto that innocent scene, watching these children enjoy their basic childhood through a twisted lens.

Those are the kind of people I am dealing with. They take pleasure in watching normal life and trying to corrupt it through their perception.

I am living my normal life. I am not bothering anyone. I am not hurting anyone. I have never wanted to do the things they project onto me. I have never done them. Yet they still accuse me. They still try to make me feel guilty. They still try to make me feel like I am the one who is twisted.

It is exhausting. And it is wrong.

A Confession About Protecting Myself

I need to confess something honestly. There is a dimension to this that I have not fully spoken about, and it weighs on my heart and conscience.

Since last year, particularly around May, the presence of these surveillance operators became much more intense and overwhelming. In response, I found myself mentally "shooting" them in my mind. I would imagine killing them, not in real life, never in real life, but in my thoughts, sometimes quite brutally, as a way to protect myself, to push them away, to create some mental boundary against their constant intrusion. It was a survival mechanism. When you are being psychologically tortured, when people project perverse things into your mind, when they make you feel like you have no escape, sometimes the mind reaches for the only weapon it has: imagination.

Thankfully, these are only mental acts. They do not translate to real life. I have never harmed anyone. I have never wanted to harm anyone. I hate guns. I do not support gun violence. I live in Canada, where I have never even touched or shot a real gun. I believe in a lawful society based on self-integrity, the pursuit of goodness, and the rule of law. I completely sympathize with people who support gun laws as a means to protect themselves; I would feel safer too in many ways if I had protection, given how unstable and unpredictable society can be. But the truth is, I feel gross and ashamed that I even have to resort to pretending to shoot these surveillance operators in my mind as a means of mental and spiritual comfort, given the gross things they accuse me of being and supporting.

Imagining violence against people, even those who torment you, is not aligned with Jesus Christ's way. His way is love, peace, goodness, the fruits of the Holy Spirit. So I repent of this. I confess it openly because I believe in honesty, and because hiding it would only let it fester.

A Connection I Can Only Speculate On

There is a deeper layer here, though I want to be very careful in how I say this. What follows is speculation on my part; I am not making a claim of certainty, only sharing a connection that occurred to me.

When Candace Owens spoke about Charlie Kirk's assassination and connected it to Freemasonry, I felt a chill. It made me wonder about something I had not understood before. Perhaps the reason the surveillance operators responded so intensely when I was mentally "shooting" them, the reason they escalated their accusations, their perverse projections, their attempts to paint me as a murderer, as violent, as someone who would harm children, is because they understood what I was doing through their own framework of symbolism and ritual. Perhaps, from their perspective, my mental defence looked like something else. Perhaps they saw it as connected to things they already knew about, things I had no knowledge of at the time, including possibly what happened to Charlie Kirk.

I want to be clear: I do not know if this is true. I have no inside information. I am simply a targeted individual trying to make sense of why their reactions were so disproportionate, so extreme, so focused on accusations of murder and violence. When I later heard Candace Owens describe what she believes happened, the symbolism, the Freemasonry connections, the idea of "sacrifice", it resonated with something I had experienced but could not previously name.

I am not claiming to understand the war in Iran, nor am I claiming special knowledge about geopolitical events. Objectively, if I were an outsider reading this, I would likely label it delusional or schizophrenic. I know how this sounds. But I am sharing it because it is part of my experience, and because being honest about what I have observed, even when it sounds unbelievable, is the only way I know to document the truth of what I have endured.

The Ongoing Projections

These days, they make it obvious they envision me as a murderer, perverse, violent. Sometimes I still envision killing them in my mind. And sometimes, I confess this with deep shame, I have envisioned shooting and killing what they present as "demonic children" in my mind, the scary images they try to project onto me.

There is no justification for mentally pretending to kill children, even if those images are projected by abusers as a form of harassment. In my defence, and I offer this not as an excuse but as context, it was a desperate attempt to protect myself from a gross aspect of their abuse: when they pretend to be creepy children latching onto you, invading your personal space, using the most innocent images to torment you. During some of these episodes, they would accuse me of being part of the "beast of the sea" because I am aware of what they do, linking it to Revelation.

I am not proud of this. I am confessing it because honesty matters, because hiding these thoughts would only give them power, and because I want to be accountable to the God who sees all things.

What I Am Learning

What I have learned through this is that violence in the mind, even imagined, even as self-defence, does not heal. It only deepens the wound. Repentance is turning away from that and toward what is good, what is true, what is aligned with God.

I am learning to replace these mental images with prayer. I am learning to bless rather than curse, even in my thoughts. It is not easy. Some days I fail. But I am trying.

And I am learning that truth, spoken truth, confessed truth, truth brought into the light, has its own healing power. As I share these testimonies, as I document my experiences, as I stop hiding what I have endured, I feel less violent. I feel more spiritually whole. The darkness loses its grip when you speak it into the light.

But I want to be clear: I am a Christian. I am someone who, in good faith, does not want to harm children, has never harmed children, and has no wicked intentions toward children. Unlike these surveillance operators, who accuse me of these terrible things, I know my own heart. I know what I have done and not done. I know the difference between a mental defense mechanism and actual evil intent.

What I have learned through this is that Truth is essential. As I have started sharing these testimonies, these experiences, my statement with others, I feel less violent. I feel more spiritually healing. The darkness loses its grip when you speak it into the light. These lessons teach me that Truth rooted in my lived experiences and my faith in God is what heals.

It may seem self-serving to say this, but taking care of your own mental health and spiritual health is not selfish. It is responsible. It heals you, and in healing you, it helps heal those around you too. Repentance is not about self-flagellation; it is about turning toward what is good, what is true, what is aligned with God. And I am turning.

I repent of the violence in my mind. I ask God to cleanse my imagination from the contamination of their projections. I ask for the fruits of the Holy Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. And I trust that God, who sees the full context, who knows what I have endured, who knows the difference between a victim's desperate mental defense and an abuser's deliberate cruelty, will extend grace.

A Note on What I Am Not Doing

I want to be clear: I am not writing this to sensationalize or to give anyone a thrill. I am writing this because these are the realities of what I endure, and naming them takes away some of their power. The people who do this would love for me to either stay silent or to write in a way that titillates. I am doing neither. I am documenting, plainly, what they do.

I have never sought out the things they project onto me. I have never engaged with such material. I find it repulsive. And I reject the false association they try to create between me and things that should not exist in any decent society.

What matters to me is healing, goodness, and the protection of the innocent. That is what I stand for. That is what I pray for. And that is what I will continue to focus on, by the grace of God.

A Word on What Is Happening in the World Right Now

I need to say something that connects what I am enduring personally to what is happening globally, because the surveillance operators have made this connection explicit to me.

Since the U.S. attacks on Iran that killed the country's Supreme Leader Ali Khamenei, conservative commentator Candace Owens has been speaking out forcefully against the war. On March 9, 2026, she posted a series of statements on X that align directly with what the surveillance operators have revealed to me about themselves.

She wrote:

"Do NOT sign up for or continue to fight for the U.S military. This war is on behalf of satanic pedophiles. Find the legal means to exit the military. Do not fight for child rapists. Come home."

She has also stated:

"Trump has betrayed America and expects you to die for Israel. There is no honor in being led by dishonorable men to your death."

When I first heard these words, I felt something I rarely feel anymore: validation. Because this is exactly what the surveillance operators have been revealing to me about themselves. They have made it known that some of them are connected to elite networks that are funding war, the very war happening right now, and that they are involved in the kinds of things Owens is naming openly.

On Candace Owens: A Voice I Can Genuinely Vouch For

I want to be very clear about something. When Candace Owens speaks about these things, I can genuinely vouch for what she is saying, not because I know her personally, but because what she is describing matches exactly what the surveillance operators have made known to me about themselves. The patterns she names, the networks she identifies, the reality of elite corruption and satanic practices within powerful institutions, these are not abstractions to me. I have lived at the receiving end of them for years.

Candace Owens has said she received tips about people planning assassinations. She has spoken about being warned, about the dangers of exposing these networks. I believe her. I also believe she is a genuine Christian woman who is risking her platform, her safety, and her reputation to speak the truth. She is revealing corruption that is plaguing the United States at the highest levels, corruption that has been hidden, that has been allowed to fester, that has been protected by those who benefit from it.

I bless her. I pray for her protection. I pray for miracles in her life, for safety, for the divine presence of God the Almighty to surround her. I pray that the universe and God Himself are on her side, because she is doing what few are willing to do: speaking truth to power, naming evil, and calling people to choose what is right.

A Prayer for Candace Owens:

In the name of Jesus Christ, I bless Candace Owens with protection, faith, miracles, safety, and every good thing. May God the Almighty surround her. May she be shielded from harm. May her voice continue to reach those who need to hear it. Amen.

In a recent episode of her podcast (Episode 308, titled "Donald Trump has Betrayed America"), Owens went further, connecting the war in Iran to what she believes happened to Charlie Kirk. She stated:

"He was betrayed. Charlie Kirk was the first casualty of the war in Iran. I'm certain of that. And it's deeper than that. I am now of the opinion that he was likely sacrificed."

She elaborated on her research into Freemasonry and what she described as the symbolism behind Kirk's death, stating:

"I believe that the manner of Charlie's death, Charlie's death was also intended to cast a spell. That's the only thing I come up. I kept asking the question, why did they broadcast this? Making us watch Charlie die was diabolical."

She also addressed the public directly:

"To the routinely gaslit public, I would like to validate your every instinct... There was apparently, sadly for them, not enough empiricism, rationality, or spellcasting in the universe to override our sense that something was and is deeply wrong."

I am not saying I agree with every claim Candace Owens makes. I do not know her personally, and I do not have access to all the information she has. But I am saying this: when a public figure with a large platform starts naming the same realities that I have been forced to endure privately, the reality of elite networks engaged in satanic practices, the reality of war being pushed by people with depraved intentions, it tells me that I am not alone in seeing this. It tells me that the things I have been forced to know are not just my delusion. They are real, and they are being exposed.

In March 2026, Owens also responded to President Trump calling Tucker Carlson "kooky," stating:

"Trump just fractured his base. What was the mandate? Keep Americans out of foreign affairs. No war."

She later observed:

"Trump initially signaled that America had nothing to do with what happened in Iran. That America was not going to get involved. That he was negotiating peace."

Now, she argues, the situation has changed. And the people who benefit are not the American people.

On Professor Jiang Xueqin

I also want to mention Professor Jiang Xueqin, a Chinese-Canadian historian, Yale graduate, and creator of the "Predictive History" YouTube channel. His work analyzing geopolitics through the lens of historical patterns and game theory has been invaluable in helping me understand the larger forces at play. He approaches both East and West as rational actors pursuing national self-interest, not through conspiracy, but through the sober analysis of incentives, geography, and historical precedent.

What I appreciate about Professor Jiang's work is that he does not sensationalize. He does not reduce complex geopolitical realities to good versus evil narratives. Instead, he helps us see how systems behave, how nations act, and what we can anticipate. His framework has helped me make sense of the geopolitical dimensions of what the surveillance operators have revealed to me, their intentions regarding war, their calculations about power, their assumptions about the future.

Like Candace Owens, Professor Jiang is speaking truth in a way that matters. His work deserves to be heard, and I pray for his continued protection and influence as well.

How God Heals Me

But here is what I have learned: God heals me from these wicked attempts. God restores my perception. God protects my mind.

The Bible says: "Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (Romans 12:21)

These people try to make me see the world through a lens of filth and perversion. But I refuse. I choose to see what is good. I choose to see what is pure. I choose to live my life with integrity, no matter how much they try to taint me.

They want me to become a monster. I will not.
They want me to become violent. I will not.
They want me to become like them. I will not.

I am simply a daughter who loves her mother, a woman who loves God, a person who wants to live a decent life. And no amount of their disgusting harassment will change that.

A Blessing Against Their Perversion

I bless my mind, my body, and my spirit with healing from their attempts to corrupt. I bless my perception to be renewed and restored. I bless every person who has been targeted by such individuals, whether they know it or not.

In the name of Jesus Christ, I rebuke their attempts to taint what is pure. I rebuke their attempts to make me feel guilty for things I have never done. I rebuke their attempts to isolate me, to shame me, to break me.

God sees what they do. God knows the truth. And God will judge.

May we all choose goodness. May we all choose purity. May we all choose to live with integrity, no matter what darkness surrounds us.

Amen.

References

Owens, C. (2026, March 9). Donald Trump has Betrayed America (Episode 308). The Candace Owens Podcast.

Owens, C. (2026, March 9). X post regarding U.S. military and "satanic pedophiles."

Owens, C. (2026, March). X post regarding Trump's betrayal of America.

Candace Owens calls out Trump for supporting Israel's war on Iran. (2026, March). LifeSiteNews.

To Get Back At Trump, Who 'Betrayed America,' Candace Owens Encourages All US Military To Quit Amid Iran Conflict. (2026, March 10). Black Enterprise.

Jiang, X. (2026). Predictive History [YouTube channel].