2/2 On Their Tactics: What the Surveillance Operators Do
This post documents the specific tactics the surveillance operators use against me and my mother. I document these not for sensationalism, but because they reveal who they are and what they do.
What the Surveillance Operators See
Not all of the surveillance operators specifically target my mother. But some of them, a few of them, are glad. They are glad that they can target someone like her. A decent, kind, gentle woman. A woman who is not greedy, not corrupt, not cruel.
But here is what I need to say to those among them who might claim they are "decent": if you really care, why don't you just stop? Why don't you end the surveillance? Why don't you tell my mother what is actually happening? Why don't you let her know the truth?
What They Wanted: My Suicide and My Parents' Confusion and Suffering
I need to document something that has been on my mind throughout this entire ordeal.
In the beginning, they wanted me to commit suicide. That was their goal. They pushed and pushed, hoping I would break, hoping I would end my life. And if I had, if I had succeeded, what would have happened?
My parents would have been left behind. They would have had no idea what actually happened to me. They would have been told it was mental illness. They would have been told it was suicide. They would have lived the rest of their lives in confusion, in grief, in the agony of not knowing why their daughter died.
They would have suffered. They would have blamed themselves. They would have wondered what they did wrong. And the operators would have gotten away with it. They would have destroyed me and left my parents in darkness.
This is who they are. This is what they wanted.
My parents love me. They love me a lot. They have supported me my entire life. They have sacrificed for me. They have believed in me. And the operators wanted to take that away from them. They wanted to take me away and leave my parents with nothing but questions.
That is evil. That is cruelty beyond what most people can imagine.
The Tactic: Accusing Me of Lying as I Write
As I write this section, the surveillance operators accuse me of lying. They say I am fabricating, exaggerating, making things up. This is what cults do. This is what abusers do. They try to undermine the credibility of the victim. They try to make you question yourself. They try to make you believe that no one will believe you.
But I am not lying. Every word I write is true. Every detail I document is real. And their accusations of lying are just another tactic, another attempt to destabilize, to gaslight, to control.
The Tactic: Targeting My Connection with My Mother
The surveillance operators target my relationship with my mother because they know it is one of the most important connections in my life. This is what cults do. They target the good relationships. They try to weaken the bonds between people who genuinely care for each other. They try to isolate the victim from the people who love them.
My mother and I have a good relationship. We are not perfect. We have times of frustration, of anger, of misunderstanding. But we love each other. We care for each other. We are both decent people trying to do our best in difficult circumstances. And from my perspective, she is the better one. She is the more righteous one. She is the one I look up to.
The operators try to exploit every moment of tension. They try to amplify every disagreement. They try to turn fleeting frustration into permanent resentment. They try to make me see my mother as an enemy rather than an ally. They try to make me jealous of her, jealous of her goodness, her brightness, her steadiness. They try to plant thoughts of attacking her.
This is vile. This is what abusers do when they cannot break you directly, they try to break the people around you. They try to destroy the relationships that sustain you.
The Tactic: Using Teenage Moments Against Me
As if that were not enough, they dig through my past. They find moments from my teenage years, fleeting moments of angst, of sarcasm, of words spoken in frustration without meaning. They take these moments and twist them. They claim that these words reveal my true intentions. They say that because I said something angry as a teenager, I must secretly want to harm my mother.
This is evil. This is gross.
Every teenager says things they do not mean. Every teenager has moments of frustration, of anger, of dramatic words spoken in the heat of the moment. These moments do not define who a person is. They do not reveal secret intentions. They are just noise, the noise of a young person trying to figure out who they are.
The operators know this. But they do not care. They use these moments to justify their own wickedness. They say they are cursing me, ritualizing violence because it is "justice." They say it is because I secretly want to do these things.
I do not. I have never wanted anything bad to happen to my mother. I love her. I want her to be safe. I want her to be happy. I want her to be blessed. I want to be more like her, more gentle, more pure, more bright.
Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour. He is also my mother's Lord and Saviour. I want us to be blessed. I want us to have goodness, love, protection, peace. That is what I truly want. That is what I pray for.
The Tactic: Infantilizing Me
The operators infantilize me. They try to see me as a child. They have made disgusting implications about our relationship, suggesting that if my mother were removed, it would be easier to exploit and destroy my normalcy. This is vile. This reveals who they are and what they think about.
I am almost thirty years old. I am not a child. My mother is not an obstacle to be removed. Their fantasies about destroying the bond between us are sickening.
The Tactic: Projecting Their Own Evil onto Me
They project their own wickedness onto me. They accuse me of the very things they do. They say I am evil, I am cruel, I am the one doing these things. They say I am happy my mother is suffering. They say I am obsessed with violence toward women. They say I am the predator, the abuser, the monster.
This is projection. This is what abusers do. They cannot face their own evil, so they paint it onto their victim. They need to believe that I am what they are—because if I am not, then they have to face what they have done.
I am not their projection. I am not their evil. I am not their monster. I am a victim documenting their abuse. I am a daughter who loves her mother. I am a Christian holding onto faith in the middle of their evil.
My Rebuke
I rebuke every tactic they have used against me and my mother.
I rebuke their desire for my suicide. I rebuke their fantasies of my parents living in confusion and grief. I rebuke their accusations that I am lying. I rebuke their targeting of my relationship with my mother. I rebuke their twisting of my teenage moments. I rebuke their infantilization of me. I rebuke their projection of their own evil onto me.
I declare in the name of Jesus Christ: You will not have me. You will not have my mother. You will not break us. You will not destroy what we have.
I declare that their tactics will fail. Their curses will return to them. Their evil will not prevail.
I belong to God. My mother belongs to God. We are protected. We are seen. We will not be broken.
In the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour, amen.
References & Notes
Cult Tactics Reference
Cults and abusive groups commonly use tactics including:
Isolating the victim from supportive family
Creating conflict between the victim and family members
Exploiting moments of tension to drive a wedge
Portraying the family as enemies or obstacles
Infantilizing the victim to create dependency
Planting ideas of jealousy, resentment, or hatred toward loved ones
Projecting their own evil onto the victim
Accusing the victim of lying to undermine credibility
Using past moments out of context to create false narratives
These tactics are well-documented in cult literature (Hassan, 1988; Combatting Cult Mind Control; Lalich, 2004; Bounded Choice; Singer, 1995; Cults in Our Midst).
Clinical References
Herman, J. (1992) Trauma and Recovery: on gaslighting, false memory implantation, and how abusers rewrite reality.
Stark, E. (2007) Coercive Control: on how abusers target family relationships and exploit family dynamics.
Pathé, M. & Mullen, P. (1997) The Impact of Stalking on Mental Health: on how victims are falsely portrayed as dangerous or deserving.
Biblical References
Isaiah 54:17 "No weapon that is formed against you will succeed."
Psalm 7:15–16 "He has dug a pit and hollowed it out, and has fallen into the hole which he made. His mischief will return upon his own head."
Galatians 6:7 "Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a person sows, this he will also reap."
Psalm 27:1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?"
Luke 6:28 "Bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."
Romans 12:19 "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay, says the Lord."
Proverbs 26:2 "Like a sparrow in its flitting, like a swallow in its flying, a curse without cause does not alight."
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